The Black Out

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I know I just made a post here but I had another regarding my curiosity as to whether I have ASD or schizophrenia or another related disorder. I can't seem to find it listed as a symptom on the web. Has anyone ever experienced a time where they completely lose control of themselves and their eye sight? Like everything goes black and there's this jump in time like missing time and when you wake from it you don't remember what you did?

This has happened to me twice. The most recent time was over four years ago when I had been drinking and went to bed and a cup of water was thrown on me as a joke. I remember getting up and going in the living room to grab a can of beer. I remember my intentions were to go and pour the beer on him but after I grabbed the can of beer I totally went black, there were flashes where I remember seeing my hand and the beer can as I was hitting him in the shoulder with it. Next thing I know I'm standing in the living room and blood is dripping on my foot. I hadn't realized I had busted out a window to one of the glass panels on the french doors that lead to the bedroom. I busted into the neighbors house thinking he was trying to murder me. He took me to the ER and I got the glass out and got staples put in and was sent home where he told me everything that had happened.

Another time was back in 2005 and this was far less severe but I had been having a really bad day and this girl said something that set me off. I remember standing up and like the second time, my vision totally blacked out on me but I was conscience of what was going on but I lacked control of myself. I told her to "shut the F**** up" and then I remember feeling the material of her shirt against my hands as I pushed her but I didn't realize I had pushed her so hard that she went over a desk. Next thing I remember was running out of the class room and despite my lack of sight I managed to do so. My sight didn't return until I got to the hallway where I ran off and hid in a bathroom.

Oh and then prior to this I remember what I think was my first black out. This was back in I think...1994 and I was taken to my Kindergarten class for registration or something, I don't remember why but I remember they had all these cut out shapes on the table and each of the students was supposed to pick one to have their name put on so it could be hung on the wall. I remember my vision going black here as well and I chose the circle shaped cut out. Why I blacked out here and what the purpose was I don't know but I had no control of it nor memory. I didn't even know what shape I picked until I came out of it, I know for a fact I would of chosen something different had that not had happened.

Anyone else have similar experiences? Could you tell me what it could possibly be a symptom of? I was thinking multiple personality but if that were the case wouldn't I have been entirely unaware both times? Was it a form of disassociation? And if so then why hasn't it happened more often? Shouldn't it as a symptom be something that's at the very least periodic or is it normal for such dramatic episodes to happen years apart? I don't know, what do you think?

Those sympoms I've been reading and you described could be dissociation, at least some of your posts remind me a bit on it.

I am not making fun in any way, but that sounds, for all the world, like those that claim alien abduction.

Wow, that's pretty intense.
If you felt time passing but couldn't see it was probably a psychogenic form of blindness i.e a hallucination.
However, if you felt a loss of time, and were unaware of what happened, that's dissociation.
To my understanding anyway.