New Here. Undiagnosed and VERY confused.

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First off, just want to say hey. Been lurking on this site for almost a year now and have decided to finally sign up.

To start things off I am uncertain if my "issues" stem from a Personality Disorder, Autism Spectrum Disorder, my abusive past, recent drug use, or all of the above. Until Obamacare kicks in and I can finally see a psych, I'm kind of stuck in a confused limbo. I am currently seeing a therapist in private practice and have brought up my concerns, but she's admitted that she's unqualified to assess an Autism diagnoses. However, she has diagnosed me with Social Phobia at this time.

I wasn't made aware of the Autism Spectrum until a few years ago. My closest experience up until then was a low functioning classmate back in grade school. I was ignorant enough to assume that all Autism looked like that (I apologize if this offends anyone). It was when my Aunt, who is now Sole Guardian of my little sister, told me her son, my cousin, was slightly Autistic. I'm pretty sure my Aunt was dropping a hint about my troubled sister. Her and I also innocently discussed little "quirks" she and I shared, which in hindsight seemed she was hinting at herself being an Aspie, and possibly me.

It wasn't until about 2 years ago that I overheard someone speculate if I was autistic at a party. In my defense I was disturbed by the unexpected orgy AND herpes epidemic happening at said party, and in order to keep myself calm, smoked enough weed to knock out an elephant. In other words, I'm aware I didn't put my best foot forward, but if I stayed sober I would have had a panic attack. Disease (especially STD's) is a major fear for me. Similar situations like this have occurred while I have been stoned, so I don't know if my substance abuse has any impact on this.......

Regardless of my status, anything to do with mental illness/disorders intrigues me. Don't know if this counts as a "special interest" (lol) but I'm very open minded, eager to learn and to share stories. I'm excited to get to know you all

Sincerely,

Me (trying to keep it on the down low)

Hello Me!

Welcome to WP

I don't like parties either... and I have phobia's galore... I can't give any great insights at the moment, it has been a long day of work and I feel brain dead... but I can say that I am glad you signed up and I enjoyed reading your introduction

@redrobin62 - you made me belly laugh out loud.. needed that

Many have this issue and many need years and years to sort it out and to understand and find out wich diagnostic lables best fit and best describe their behaviour. Very often it's even a combination out of different factors.

So welcome.

Welcome to Wrong Planet!