Hi! I am in the state of New Hampshire.
It's very long but please read.
I'm not sure how to even start asking about this but I'll try. I am not sure if I have been mistreated on my most recent hospital stay. I signed myself yesterday afternoon.
I signed myself out because during my individual meeting with the psychiatrist I started telling him how I didn't think my life is going well and I get very depressed and have burned and he looked down at my hand and said that he's not buying my story because I didn't have marks. Before that he proceeded to tell me that I have a diagnosis of borderline personality disorder and he always knew I did. I had also been hospitalized with this same doctor previously. I was never told about this diagnosis and started to get very upset then he says, "See! You're not that shy mousy girl you were before. See!" , as if I was lying.
I feel very upset and I am not sure if I've been mistreated but I don't feel like community mental health is for me. I was wondering if there's anywhere I could go as far as a formal diagnosis of a spectrum disorder in the state of NH because I feel as though I cannot trust this team with my diagnosis. This psychiatrist also works at the same mental health facility I used to go to before I was transferred for care somewhere else due to new catchment areas.
As far as I knew, my diagnoses were major depressive disorder, generalized anxiety disorder and Spectrum disorder (my spectrum diagnosis was done informally by someone who works there but not a specialist)
Before those diagnoses, it was dissociative something disorder, then they changed it after evaluations to the 3 disorders I gave.
During my telemedicine interview in the ER the lady at the place I used to go said it was written down as the dissociative disorder something-or-other.
I was also nervous to take one of my new meds. I have severe anxiety with pills. He told me if I did not take the ill he would discharge me. I signed myself in but thought I had the right to refuse the pill and perhaps try a different one and have the staff help me work through my anxieties. I decided to just sign myself out.
I don't know if I've explained this well, I'm overly emotional and upset. I don't know what to do and I don't know if I have been mistreated.
Everyone is free to answer this, but I'd love hearing from mental health professionals.
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25 May 2017, 3:00 pm
