Asperger, personality disorder or other(s)?

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Hi all,

I hope this message is relevant for this section of the forum. And I also hope I could get some "guidance" here because I feel a bit lost. I'm gonna introduce my situation first maybe and then I'll get right to what this message is for.

Actually I don't really know who I am. I have the impression I have no personality and I'm trying to go through any possible explanation for this. Indeed it's like I can't really show my feelings to others and at the same time I can't be empathetic with people. Most of the time I don't know what to say and I have trouble understanding what people say to me. Except maybe in languages (and still, it's just the language itself that interests me the most and not the litterature or culture surrounding it), I don't have a particular interest and so I feel I can't integrate into any group.
Currently, I'm studying Sociology in College but I don't feel it's the subject fit for me. I'm thinking about changing for Translating Studies or Linguistics. But it's not just the subject but also people who make me uncomfortable. Recently, a group of people told me I was "weird". I didn't really care because they're not the people I'm staying with most of the time but still. And even with the people I'm staying with, I don't feel it's easy. It's hard for me to build up a friendship. I mean, it's "easier" when people approach me nicely and when we start talking each other but once those people get closer to me, it becomes harder and harder.

So I've been looking for answers, for advices, for something that could get me out of these problems. With time, I found out I was gay but it only helped a bit to realize that. I went for an IQ test also but the results were fairly contradictory. I was "gifted" in the language section of the test but I wasn't in the other sections (in fact I was even under the average in the visual section if I remember).
Then I came across the Asperger syndrome but it was difficult for me to accept even the possibility of being asperger. I also thought about the fact that I just didn't have any personality and that's why people would see me as someone "strange". That's why I would have difficulties to maintain relationships and relate to people.

I've talked about this with my psychologist and she thinks I'm not asperger. So I would have to say it's just a personality issue. But then again I'm not even sure of anything anymore...
What should I do? Should I get a proper diagnosis? Or not get a proper diagnosis and just try to overcome my problems?

Thanks for reading in advance!