Anoreksia nevrosa?

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I have this condition. Are we several on the forum? I feel it is a connection with asperger because ai need to feel Where my body are, and need to be in control.

Not anorexia nervosa, but I do have an eating disorder (EDNOS/OSFED). I think it's related to my PTSD more than anything, but ASD could have something to do with it as well.

i'm recovered from anorexia but i'm not recovered from an eating disorder yet (also EDNOS/OSFED).
i think it is very connected to my ASD just because of how my brain works and how i cope with external circumstances.
i have also heard that eating disorders and disordered eating habits are relatively common in people on the spectrum.

I had anorexia in high school during my whole 3 years. Anorexia is a control issue disease. A person can't control their outside circumstances, but they can control what goes into their mouth and how much they exercise. I had went to one middle school and made a few friends (it was hard to make friends as it was) and because of how the dividing lines were I was made to go to a totally different high school than where my middle school friends went. Everyone at the new school knew each other and I knew no one. I did finally make a few friends, but I never fit in. I do remember it all started one day with my dad telling me that I was fat (forgot how much I weighed, but it wasn't astronomical). I was in 10th grade and it was at that time I started not eating. I had some very strange rituals. I was ALWAYS doing some sort of exercise no matter where I was - even in the bathtub I would do leg lifts. I would eat no breakfast and I was supposed to used lunch money to get lunch, but what I did was I would allow myself to have two diet cherry cokes only. When I got home I would have a little sugar by having some coffee (I was tired all of the time) while I watched Dynasty on TV. When supper came I said I would eat upstairs and ended up flushing all my dinner down the toilet - my parents never knew. When I got hungry for something like Doritos I would take the bag into the bathroom and eat and eat and just spit it out into the toilet so I could have the taste and it worked to a point. Night time was exercise time and I exercised every night for at least two hours. Every night I would do at least 200 setups on this setup board. I also remember that I would get mad at myself if my index finger and thumb didn't fit around my wrists - that was a big ritual. I slept a lot because of no energy, although, sometimes I would have quite a bit of energy. It was at this time that I tried some speed pills so I wouldn't be as tired. My hair fell out from lack of protein. The thing was that I was fitting into size 0 clothes and people kept giving me all of these compliments and girls in school wanted to know how I was doing it. Of course they didn't know what hell it was staying this way. My grades really suffered, but I graduated. It was also during this time that I drank a lot of alcohol that I would get from my mom. So I mainly functioned the whole 3 years on coffee and alcohol. After high school was over and I didn't have that problem anymore, everything just slowly went back to normal except for the alcohol which I've had some problems with my whole. life.

When I was having the problems I had with my IBS a couple months ago and not being able to eat, I was afraid I could get it back because I was really losing the weight fast by not being able to eat, but still exercising a lot - I lost 8 lbs in one week. It hasn't come back. I always have to be in control of things and I think that is at the root of the problem.