Alter egos with autism

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I don't know if anyone else has experiences with this, but about ten years ago in a bid to make myself feel more confident and to 'forget who I was' I created myself an 'Alter ego' (or second person) whereby if I came to any harm or found myself in a stressful situation I would go into it.

A few years ago I met someone just like myself who also claimed they too had an 'alter ego' but when they went into theirs they did it by command and they 'dissaoeared' for about ten minutes having no recollection of the event whereas mine comes out whenever it wants to come out and it has a completely different personality and mindset to me, sometimes I have control over its thoughts and feelings because I know it is something that I created... but it seems to get rather upset with me and dissapear for some time when I remind it that it's not real.

I tried asking my health team once if it was possible it was now a second personality, but they think it's a coping mechanism as part of my autism. The thing is, I very rarely forget things but recently I have been under stress and forgetting things a lot more than usual because I am moving house after suffering bullying, but my worry is that during those times of forgetfulness I will have no idea of the concept of time and what I have been doing for all those hours, almost like daydreaming or sleeping awake.

Has anyone else had this experience?

It's not associated with autism as far as I know, I think it's more of an emotional trauma thing.

I do have a friend who had an abusive father and has some mental disorders (autism not being among them), sometimes he goes into what he calls "mad scientist mode" where his personality completely changes and he acts very strange almost to the point of being insane except that he also tends to single mindedly focus on some engineering problem (hence the name). He has some control over when that happens, but even talking about it makes it more likely. When he was first telling me about it he started acting very strange but then he snapped out of it, that was shortly after he had been in that state and designed a water powered electrolysis flamethrower that could theoretically work.