So... past few days have been... pretty bad with my brother with autism (5 yrs older than me). He has been none stop for the past 2-5 days with just being a total jerk. it has pretty much truamatized me and my mother.
My psychiatrist mentioned i might have some mild symtoms, but never mentioned my brother (he never really talked in the sessions...) so my mom did some research and i recently looked up the symtoms and:
Mayo-Clinic
DSM-5 criteria for diagnosis of ODD show a pattern of behavior that:
* Includes at least four symptoms from any of these categories — angry and irritable mood; argumentative and defiant behavior; or vindictiveness
- Occurs with at least one individual who is not a sibling (Yes - many, many times with complete strangers)
- Causes significant problems at work, school or home (Yes. 100% on school and home)
- Occurs on its own, rather than as part of the course of another mental health problem, such as a substance use disorder, depression or bipolar disorder (Completely.)
- Lasts at least six months (Almost everyday.)
DSM-5 criteria for diagnosis of ODD include both emotional and behavioral symptoms.
* Angry and irritable mood:
-Often loses temper - (... No. not often)
- Is often touchy or easily annoyed by others (.. Not 'Easily', but yes.)
- Is often angry and resentful. (he doesn't talk much. but any rule we try to have; you get the bull and horns.)
- Argumentative and defiant behavior:( every. day. over anything.)
- Often argues with adults or people in authority (Yup)
- Often actively defies or refuses to comply with adults' requests or rules. (Oh lord, yes.)
- Often deliberately annoys people. (Yes. he has admitted this on his own.)
- Often blames others for his or her mistakes or misbehavior. ( always. always. always.)
* Vindictiveness:
Is often spiteful or vindictive (Seems like it.)
Has shown spiteful or vindictive behavior at least twice in the past six months. (yes. yes. yes.)
((He also never, has ever, apologized or ever felt bad. maybe once when he was a little kid...but since then? never.))
So... this was reliving when i heard there was an answer to all i've seen, dealt with. Always wanting to just leave (even though he has been told he doesn't have the required skills to even function at home on a normal, easy routine.)
we are both getting genetic testing for multiple reasons, and my family is fresh out of 17 yrs. of domestic violence, so... ya. i've pretty angry, numb, probably depressed. he tried to run away because we told him to have a routine and some stability for his autism. My mom encouraged we needed to go look for him, and i was able to bring him back home.
God. today is hard
27 Jan 2017, 2:55 pm
