248RPA wrote:
I experience what I call "perfectionism of the touch". It's where I have to touch something "perfectly", or else I have to touch it over and over until I could get it "right". But often that just makes it worse because it seems that I can't get it "right" no matter what. I'm working on getting myself to leave it.
I have had the same issue, and it is a symptom (at least in my case), of obsessive compulsive disorder. I had the very same compulsion, as well as other, similar compulsions, from early childhood, into my late 30's, for the most part, and, still experience them, on occasion, as the result of anxiety. They would become more frequent and pronounced with heightened level of anxiety, and the more relaxed I became, the less I experienced. I don't know if one can grow out of this, however, I haven't had them in several years, despite the fact that the anxiety I experience has increased in intensity, as compared to the past. I learned to force myself, not to act on my compulsions. It isn't easy to do, but, it is absolutely, possible. I wish you success. : )