I value my therapist very much, she teached me to acknowledge my own needs and feelings.
Lastly I am extremely tired, total shutdown and a foam in place of my brain. When I am this tired, I start expiriencing huge social anxiety, even the nicest lady from our local grocery store triggers fight or flight response in me.
After exploring some possible reasons of it, my therapist suggested that she thinks my social phobia is actually healthy in the shutdown state. I spend my energy on human interactions and when my energy is dangerously low, my brain protects itself from further overload.
I found it
1) relieving - it's perfectly okay that I avoid humans when I feel like avoiding humans;
2) worth sharing here.
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Let's not confuse being normal with being mentally healthy.
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