My symptoms are bad again

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I just got my medication increased because I hallucinate really bad at night and I'm not sleeping because of it. Like I saw a golden light in my room and it felt weird.

I keep going nonverbal too. It's really uncomfortable. It's like I have so many thoughts but I cant articulate them in words. I forget how to do it sometimes. Other times I'm so out of it that I just sit there and let the world go by.

I'm also having random crying episodes. I just start crying over random things and it scares people.

Hi Crystal
It's 5am in Northern England and the rain hasn't stopped for 5 days. My cats Couscous and Chez tend to spend a lot of time outside playing hide and seek etc. Couscous has been out all night, probably holed up on a hey stack in a farmers barn. Chez, being older, prefers the soft furnishings at home when it's dark and wet.

I wonder if your crying has something to do with the frustration and helplessness of your situation. It must be difficult to achieve normality when your illness is constantly changing the rules of what is normal. I hope you have someone there to support you. Sometimes it's just nice to be told that everything is going to be alright by someone who cares.

I hope the medication is helping with your hallucinations, sounds like you're having a difficult time at the moment. I hope you find moments of solace in between the episodes.

kuze