cant fight depression anymore

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It's wearing me down and I need help. The only fix is to get away, get in my car and just drive to nature where I can be away from everything. I have a constant drive to get away from my house, county, etc. I don't have money to fuel that sort of exploring lifestyle though.

I have no money to do it and I'm unemployed due to the Depression. I want to work but I'm currently unable to do anything at all really. It's like a continuous pain, both mental and physical, and I'm afraid it's damaging my health. It's bad enough to have caused psychosis, at least I was told by my old therapist, but I cant do anything to stop them.

I have no friends and though I need them right now, I don't have the energy or patience to go looking or to put that much work into maintaining something.

Therapists wont respond to the messages I'm sending them and no one takes my insurance. Do you have any advice or anything to help short term? I think even just one session would help.

I have been staying home. I am wondering if that is helping or worsening the depression? Some schedule adjustment, light therapy, a type of exercise, a food you'd recommend, anything at all? I don't know how to fight this anymore.

its a small thing and its not a fix, but taking on a hobby thats physical and has results you can see might help, like art or baking or something

also, going outside at least once per day is something good

dont be afraid to contact an old friend, someone you used to be good pals with but fell out of touch. (also it might be tempting to just let them know everything about how you're struggling, but it might be better to let them talk and ask them questions. human contact helps)

remember that something small is better than nothing. almost is better than nothing.

Depression isn't something alien, like a virus; it arises from within me. "Fighting depression" is really fighting with my Self; futile, frustrating, and exhausting. For me, a big part of learning to live with depression was learning to accept that 'feelings aren't facts'; you can't catch one, put it in a jar, and show it to me. Viewed dispassionately and objectively, feelings are actually very ephemeral and transient; like clouds temporarily obscuring the moon. Because these feelings arise from within me, I am their only source of energy. The less energy I invest in them, the less powerful they appear to be. I can learn to simply allow these feelings to arise without resistance, exist without reaching out and glomming onto them, and fade away without clinging, like snow falling on a warm sidewalk.
Maximizing time spent outdoors, particularly in nature and natural sunlight (especially this time of year) helps me a lot.
Meditation; sitting, walking, and Tai Chi, helps me a lot.
Exercising particular discretion regarding who I choose to be around, what I read, listen to, and watch on TV helps me a lot.
Exercising particular discretion regarding what I eat and drink (caffeine, sugar, alcohol) helps me a lot.
Maintaining routine and acting "as if" (pretending to be normal, whatever that is); get out of bed, shower, shave, and getting dressed helps me a lot.
There have been times in my life when antidepressants have been not just helpful, but essential.

There are better and worse things than staying home.

Better or worse in what way?

Omega three fatty acids allegedly "help" with depression, for some people

Going to bed early and waking up early is good, but that could just be me


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The previous counselor, Jeanne Courtney, told me that her field is the Diagnostic statistical manual. Her field is not relationships and emotions.


Counseling could "help", neither, or "hurt"


It depends on which counselor

Just registered to let you know that you've been heard. I'm dealing with the same stuff and you're right...it is hard,hard,HARD!

Something I've found to help is volunteering with local animal shelters when I can pull myself out of the house.
The one near me is pretty relaxed as far as how often you need to show up.I've met people who give two hours every two weeks to one hour a week or even daily. As long as it's basic like cleaning cages or just loving on some puppers and kitties and not something set-in-stone like providing therapy-dog visits, they've been very understanding.

Light-therapy has been helpful. Lately I've been doing one, just ONE, healthy activity a day. Going for a walk, doing crunches, switching out laundry...things like that. But what makes it help is that you don't think about what good you can do for yourself tomorrow or how much you "should" or "could" do today.

Just do one thing for yourself. Anything that's good for you. Because when you're in the trenches, one good thing is enough.

As far as therapy, Reddit has things like Codependence Anonymous, depression-support, and things like that. They even have chat-meetings.

Look, as corny as it sounds, you ARE worth one healthy activity a day. Just get through this day. That's enough.