I read you're tired - very tired - exhausted - and misinterpreted.
It's okay to take care for your needs, including need for crying. That's how you get energy to "socialize properly" and do other things that need to be done. You sound totally depleted right now.
Can you sense what you need the most right now?
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Let's not confuse being normal with being mentally healthy.
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