CollegeGirlAnon wrote:
funeralxempire wrote:
CollegeGirlAnon wrote:
You scored this?
Yeah.
And you were honest about the answers?
I tried to be, in some cases they were more applicable to how I
have behaved when younger than how I'd expect myself to behave now, but I still am pretty terrible at focusing outside of very high stress environments, don't really get panicked in dangerous and unpredictable situations and instead just focus intensely and struggle with delaying gratification and impulse control. I've robbed people before, but it was always retaliation for them either robbing me or close friends. I used to intentionally humiliate people who had violently (or wise humiliatingly) bullied me. In high school I added spikes supported by rawhide (along with small screws and crazy glued on stinging nettles on the back of the collar) to a leather jacket knowing the guy who slammed me into a locker every day would hurt himself when we collided and tussled and when he hurt his hands and flinched from retaliating I maced him with homemade mace (rubbing alcohol and Death By Johnny's capsaicin extract) and f****d him up beyond recognition despite him being two years older, taller, heavier and having friends who I assumed would end up trying to fight me because I saw my opportunity and figured I wouldn't get another one. He didn't come back for a few days and when he did I made a point of doing disgusting things to him like blowing snot rockets from a balcony. Once I wasn't intimidated it was really hard to resist rubbing it in his face that he couldn't touch me. Picking on the guy covered in spikes who wears steel-toed boots can really be a bad idea if he's taken enough of everyone's hostility and needs someone to make an example of.
I haven't gotten in a fight for a decade and I don't really get vindictive like that anymore because as an adult most people don't escalate to laying hands on me. I got beat up all through elementary school and had a best friend who almost certainly is a psychopath (as we discovered in high school). When I got to high school I was pretty ill-equipped to deal with continued bullying and while I never got bulky I did get mean AF when it came to how I responded to people who laid hands on me, especially if they did it as a group.
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