I want to tell my DR that I have some experiences because of a spiritual thing. I'm unsure if that go well for me though. I believe that it is a spiritual thing sometimes. I will stay on medication though to make other people happy. Yet I'm not sure. I just think I'm pretty lucid most of the time. I think I have too much awareness sometimes for it to be fake.
I think since I can tell some of my hallucinations are fake and since I'm not sure about this one. It could be real since medication helps everything else. It honestly doesn't bother me so much. I just wish.i could explain it to my DR in a way that makes sense. if they prescribe me medication again it'll make me sleepy .any dose higher than the one I'm on causes problems. Yet I've had them be concerned. Also I think I'm doing well lately. I don't have much to worry about. In fact I don't feel scared or too much energy. I think I am in fact connected yet I just need to be a bit more quiet about it to certain people. They will say things that make me cry. I will cry because they get mad or laugh at me.
I know I have a diagnosis that causes hallucinations but I think it's possible to have both hallucinations and real things that people don't understand. yet they always trip me up when I answer the questions. I just want time to explain my point of view. I never get to though. Also it makes me feel disappointed when I don't get to. So I just don't try. But other people sometimes laugh when I try to tell them. Also sometimes.i think I do get another frequency and speak a different language..I mean how would I know a different language..I can't make it up. I think it's because of a person in my dreams. They are looking out for me.
Yes i know I sometimes have Hallucinations and I struggle. However I just feel different about this. It doesn't bother me. In fact it makes me feel better. My sleep schedule is good lately, I'm not sad or too anxious, I have been eating enough and I have been talking to people. Also I've been going out more. I just will not explain it to people because then they don't understand and will get upset.
Today, 10:06 am
