Is it possible to go back to before?

Post Reply New Topic

I haven't felt really ok since I was 16. Although I had a rough time when I was 14. However I'm just not like I was. Even though I was sad at 14, I had more hope and was better mentally. My baseline was way better. Now my baseline seems to be paranoid thoughts I can dismiss and feeling very on edge. I didn't used to be so scared.

My self care has declined, my interests have gone away, and I struggle to just get moving. I don't read anymore. I don't seem to care about certain things anymore. I can feel happy but it's not the same. I just constantly feel detached. Sometimes I just fall into traps of things that aren't real. It's very disorienting. I think my life will be different and better but it was just delusional thinking of being a prophet. I neglect self care completely when that happens. Then I get out of it and feel sad. It's like just never getting ahead anymore. I feel sad during it too because people can be mean about it.id cry before because I thought people were trying to put me down.

Even though I'm not in that right now, it still sticks around sometimes. I just feel like a problem sometimes. I don't know how to get completely better but people want me to. I just feel like I have to hide it. People get so frustrated with me. I hear my family talking about me after I've ruined the vibe by getting angry out of nowhere. Sometimes my sister says she thinks I should move out because it's stressful when I'm around sometimes. I feel sad about it. Yet I know she loves me. I just don't like stressing people out.

Schizophrenia is usually a lifelong condition. I have read about rare cases of people going into seemingly permanent remission from it, even without medications to help with it, but for most people it will be lifelong and be better and worse, in terms of symptom prevalence, at different stages in one's life, along a lifetime trajectory.