Sorry for the late reply.
I've been fighting myself and tried to think sense into things.
I read the last reply and it got me thinking... and thinking a lot.
I'll answer the questions as good as i can, Rhodry.
1- true. The 0,00001 second between seeing yourself in the mirror and your eyes focusing, is the moment i see a glimp of my inner self. (a woman)
2- very true. I've told a few friends about my feelings and while i don't dare to realize myself, they say, i DO know exacly what i want. I want to be a woman on the outside.
3- Tried that a little bit. I'm not sexually aroused. It just feels normal to me. I just have to be very carefull not to be caught and that makes me way to tense atm.
4- I feel comfortable in male and female cloths. even without cloths. it's my body that's the problem. I close my eyes and i feel breasts. My jewels dangle to much. aaaargh frustration.
5- I would like that. that would be much simpler. Even being just gay would be simpler. But i'm not simple. I'm a lesbian in a male body.
6- It's not normal for males to dress in dresses. Those are the social rules that i do know. I had very strict parents and i've learned all social rules very well.
love Kheelan aka Raynae (yeah i've changed my alt name a bit. this will be my deff. name.)
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