fongku wrote:
I'm a gay aspie and during the first half of the 2000s I appeared in about ten porn films from various major studios under the name Ollie Kicks. during this time I was stupidly unaware of my condition but was well aware that pot and music and solitude were the magic combination for me. I shot a few vids and made enough to buy computers and musical equipment, without which I'd still be a musical apprentice. but like I said it was a tumultuous time for me in a very real environment that I was ill equipped for, and when I didn't have pot I'd resort to whatever else was available. inevitably I was labelled a crazy junkie and my welcome just plain wore out.
however. to this day I still feel that porn is a very valid choice for an aspie. if your inhibitions don't get you down, you can confidently broker a sexual transaction, in a dimly lit and quiet environment, without the responsibility of creating or maintaining a mood, get paid, and get a whole lot of attention that you never could have expected.
had I not sullied my reputation I'd still be makng the occasional porn film, and using the cash to vacation properly: in a quiet, dimly lit exotic locale, with a gorgeous man - that I very well may have rented ( or vice versa ).
remember, having trust in others is not nearly as important as having trust in your ability to negotiate.
Yikes! have you Google Imaged searched your stage name? Woo hoo! (but you gotta turn the 'Safe Search' off!)
Merle
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