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So I've known my whole life that I am "different", and even though I look sort of like a girl, I have the mind of a guy. I've always felt trapped in this body I shouldn't have. It's in the past five years that I've had understanding of what this means, and actually only recently that I've been "out" fully to myself and husband.
It has come to the point that I can't suppress myself anymore, so I've recently mentioned something to my therapist. On Tuesday I have my intake meeting, this is going to be my first time really being "out" and talking about my issues, with someone trained in gender disorders. I've just never verbally explored this aspect of myself before (I'm only starting to be able to speak to my husband about it, rather than type).
My question is, for the rest of you, what was it like becoming verbal about your orientation? Do you feel like your autism has made it harder to come out?

My experience was the reverse of yours, in that I was aware of my sexual orientation long before I had any idea that I had an ASD (I was Dx as an adult).

I mistakenly credited many of my social deficits to the challenge of being a closeted, gay adolescent in an all-boys school. It is only with the clarity of hindsight that I realize that my other gay classmates did not have the same experiences, and that my social isolation was due to other causes. So in that respect, AS did not make it harder to come out, but coming out made it harder to recognize the impacts of AS.

Thanks for your reply, I appreciate it.

I was "Aware" of my sexuality my whole life, but I didn't know that there was actually a group of people who felt like me. The past five years I've learned a lot about being transgender/transsexual, but I couldn't fully let myself open up even to myself. It's only been in the past six months or so that I've had to come completely out to myself and husband.

I am not a big talker, and I can go months or almost years without saying more than 20 or 30 words to some people I see. I also have difficulty saying things I need to say, asking for help, the words just aren't there when I try to talk. Part of my problem is stressing about being asked questions and not having an answer scripted. It's in that way, I suppose, that I'm feeling like being autistic is making it harder to come out.