Freaking myself out- need clarity!

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Well, this sounds weird but I thought it up a while ago and then all of a sudden I'm really panicking this mornin about this. I think I might be transgender, it sort of hit me that when I was younger I loved to play with cars and I always wanted a train set but never got one. I had all the interests most girls do, I used to love wearing dresses and skirts and things but since I've got older...
I know the ideal female but I don't feel like that, I don't really care about what I look like and I don't feel feminine. I don't see the point in makeup and I'm really self-coincious about my body, I never liked becoming more feminine looking.
I'm struggling to talk about the multitude of opposing things at the moment because I've just been hit with a wave of panic.
I've always been very maternal, I love babies and I enjoy things like sewing which are obviously considered more of a female hobbie. I've also never had any attraction to a boy ever, my mum is in denial enough that I could be a lesbian, she keeps saying I'm too young to know.
But is it just my rubbish self confidence that makes me feel unfeminine? Feeling awful so anything would help me feel better.

Should not answer, you need to talk to girls that are not soaked up in main stream behaviour. They are hard to find, you may praise yourself to be one of them. The most valuable.
However. You are only 16, you are supposed to feel like you do. Don't put much weight in it. You are certainly not a transgender or you would be 100% sure by now, in any case your mom is right. As it is strange that you have yet to feel love for the opposite gender, only you know whether you have aggravating feelings for your own gender.

Ideal female.. Look up the definition of ideal.. ideal for who? Sound like your aiming for something that's not ideal for you.

Femininity is only good to an extent. You need to relax and let your nature live, don't attempt to transform into an ideal stereotype. Be yourself.

Yes it is your rubbish self-confidence.

Maybe you just aren't a girly girl?

This really isn't true. There are lots of transgender people who at 16 (or quite a bit older) were far from sure about their own gender identity or what they needed to do to be happy and comfortable with themselves. There are people who know for certain from a very young age but there are also people for whom it takes a lot of introspection and working through to figure out what's for the best.

Yeah don't listen to this. My former partner didn't come out as trans until she was in her late 20's, and her partner didn't come out until her late 60's. It's the sort of thing that can take a lot of time and a lot of self-reflection. I'd recommend speaking with a gender-identity specialist if you are really uncertain.

Also keep in mind that there are more forms of gender expression than just masculine and feminine, and more gender identities than just cis or trans. Agender, bigender, genderqueer, you could be any of these things. In the end only you have the answers though.

It's important to remember that our bodies take a lot longer than we realize to go through the transition from child to adult. At sixteen, you may feel that many of the processes are complete--your adult anatomy is in place. But your endocrine system is still working overtime to effect changes to your body and to your brain. In the midst of all of this chemical upheaval, it should not be surprising that you are feeling the way that you do.

I suggest that the most important thing that you can do is not to expect there to be a single, simple answer to the question, "who am I?" No person fits nicely into an easily labelled box--you will always be a unique combination of features. Rather than try to put a label on yourself now, try to take the time to understand how you feel without attaching any labels to it at all.

So you don't feel feminine. That's fine. You aren't interested in wearing skirts and dresses? Don't wear them, then. There's no rule that says that you have to . You don't see the point of make up? Great. You'll save yourself a lot of money, and be able to sleep in a little longer.

In time, your feelings may change. Or they might not. It doesn't really matter, because whatever your feelings are, they are yours.

I am a woman who is not traditionally girly. I played with my brothers toys all the time when I was younger, but I liked to sew. And High School was horrible. I was bullied, I never dated. I didn't like anyone, and if they approached me I thought they were just making fun of me. You need to learn to be happy doing what you like. It doesn't matter if it's for "boys" or "girls". If you like it, then that's what you like. Don't worry so much about gender roles for now.