When I was readig the bible, the christian bibl there was soethig about a man beig cursed...in the first testamnt, and a fw months after I rad that I wondered if I could be cursed and could be responsible for puttig people in hell, and than I felt like I could do this because i'm special or somethig but other people couldn't. And it gives me social anxiety to be around people at times. I' trying to convince myself that my feelings aren't right all the time and that feelings can mean different things. I'm waiting to get into a psychosis clinic for help with this, and guess what its been a month wait just to get the referral in. Also theres this girl in my life that I like, but I don't know if I want a realtionship right now, but I also don't want to see her with someone else. She likes me too, but I don't think enough to be my girlfriend. We are friends with benefits right now. I'm also looking to talk to people ongoingly, as i'm just starting to talk to new people and I live on my own. Also i'm on odsp, and finding it so boring in the days, nothing to do.
02 Oct 2013, 4:34 pm
