How does one live as genderfluid?

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What it says on the tin. How do you live day-to-day with something as life-altering as your gender in flux?

The best answer I can come up with by myself as an outsider is: "Not easily."

what is "genderfluid"?

It's a gender identity wherein the gender you identify with changes on a day-to-day basis, whether you want it to or not.

Are you intersexed or trans ?

I'm white, male, straight, cisgendered, and curious.

It's really not difficult. I feel like it might actually be more difficult without autism. I go into such rote practiced social interaction/learned work behavior mode when dealing with the outside world, and I just wear whatever and act however at home. It definitely helps that I have a very supportive Wife, but it seems like an easier life to live as someone who doesn't need as many people as badly as an NT.

I'm a genderfluid female. I keep a wardrobe that has a lot of gender neutral clothing as well as some really girly things and guys clothing. That way i can feel comfortable however i feel. The same goes for my music selection and accessories. I believe gender fluidity comes ffrom fluxuating hormones. When i feel more male i have more angst and exercise more. I go by a name that is female but hat doesn't make me cringe when i don't feel so girly. When it comes to a formal occasion i will go as a lady no matter how i feel inside, but life has gotten me used to that.I've been gender fluid all my life so what helps the most is that i moved to a very large liberal city where it is accepted and finally knowing I'm not the only one. I appreciatr ur interedt. I find it interesting to as one of my so-called special interest is cultural anthropol ogy. My hhusband is so supportivr of me snd i have a gf also who was actually a friend of his when we met who finds it attractive how i am... and that is Huge! because its an aspect of my core being that has always been attacked and is now finally loved. So however i feel in the morning i just "go with it" and sometimes i'll feel different later that day but the most important thing is self-acceptance.

I found an excellent article on this recently online..wish i could find it again. Being genderfluid can vary for everyone in regard to ease and comfort. For myself, I usually feel a little of both genders. When I feel more F than M it is definately easier because my body and hormones reflect F. ai do have a friend who is intersex and bigender. Bigender is where a person feels mostly either M or F without ever feeling in the middle of the continium. My frienf says this is hard and feels so starkly M or F my friend has two different names to use.

The two hardest things about being genderfluid for me are: 1) A lot of G and Ls just assume I'm cisgender and not part of there community because i am in a heterosexual relationship .
2) Days when i feel more like the gender that my body is not i desire to take hormones but can't because the effects of testosterone use would only distress me when i am feeling femme again.

I found an excellent article on this recently online..wish i could find it again. Being genderfluid can vary for everyone in regard to ease and comfort. For myself, I usually feel a little of both genders. When I feel more F than M it is definately easier because my body and hormones reflect F. ai do have a friend who is intersex and bigender. Bigender is where a person feels mostly either M or F without ever feeling in the middle of the continium. My frienf says this is hard and feels so starkly M or F my friend has two different names to use.

The two hardest things about being genderfluid for me are: 1) A lot of G and Ls just assume I'm cisgender and not part of there community because i am in a heterosexual relationship .
2) Days when i feel more like the gender that my body is not i desire to take hormones but can't because the effects of testosterone use would only distress me when i am feeling femme again.

This is mostly how things are for me, though I've only recently come to terms with what I am. While it would be nice to be able to dress, act, socialize, and be socialized with in ways that are genuine at any given time, I've stuck with my biological sex and well-practiced roles in the workplace the same as I have for many years beforehand in one way or another.

What really counts is who I can be elsewhere, though since I only have one set of genitals that I can't Mr. Potato Head I have to make some compromises in the bedroom...

I consider myself "gender queer", but I could also fit this term. My gender changes. About 25% of the time, I'm male.

Well, I have a fairly gender neutral wardrobe. I have very short hair, but people say I still look feminine. I guess I prefer to not look like either gender unless the feeling is VERY strong.

I don't know what to call my gender, but I have used genderqueer, agender, pangender, tomboy and genderfluid. My gender can fluctuate on a daily or semidaily basis. I usually feel neutral, but sometimes male or female. I have gender dysphoria and really wish my body were more neutral-looking.

When I first realized that I wasn't just a tomboy who "never grew out of it," I had found a website about being genderqueer and I sort of started obsessing about my gender and "passing" (in case you don't know, that means when a stranger meets you and naturally assumes that you are the gender that you feel you are) which is never gonna happen for me because I'm nonbinary and basically no one in my society knows that we even exist. I got caught up in trying to present my gender in different ways, and gendering myself too much, and overthinking every little thing. So that was a difficult time of transition.

Now that I feel more "settled" and understand my gender better, I still don't know what to call it, but I don't stress about it too much anymore. Our patriarchal society values masculinity over femininity, so even though everyone reads me as female, I can wear men's clothes and that is considered acceptable. Basically I escape prejudice by being invisible. No one knows I'm nonbinary because no one knows that is an option. If I read male, then I would have a much harder time expressing my duality of gender without discrimination, I'm quite sure.

Often I still really wish anyone would even TRY to call me by my gender-neutral pronouns (I'm a "they"), especially my close friends who know that I am nonbinary. It hurts to know that they think I am just crazy or something. I used to wish so hard that I would someday find out that I was intersex, and then people would HAVE to accept that I'm nonbinary, but a surgery to remove a tumor from my abdomen last summer pretty much killed all hope for that. To be honest, even if my wish was granted I'd probably just be called "it" or simply not referenced at all, and ostracized at best.

My partner doesn't see me as anything but a woman and I guess medically and objectively, he's right. I have a lot of masculine and feminine mental qualities, so the word 'androgynous' always seemed to fit me mentally. 'Genderfluid' never seemed like the right word, but then I don't like the concept of 'fluidity' in sexuality (I'm definitely bisexual all the time and not fluid about it,) so my aversion could come from that. My body shape is very feminine and makes me uncomfortable at times.

I guess I just feel a near-constant clash between how I feel inside and how I seem to other people, or how people expect me to be...but I can't read their minds. I can't know exactly how I'm perceived.

I have friends who are sympathetic to it when I try to explain it to them, but to be honest, I don't completely understand it myself.