When I first went for a diagnosis, I spent about thirty minutes speaking to a junior psychologist at a hospital. I told her I am "transgendered", since I thought that was the proper term. I did not know I had autism. After about thirty minutes a male supervisor psychiatrist came in, spoke with me, and stated that I have autism.
He conferred with the junior doctor about what I had told her, and he asked me what "transgendered" means. I tried to explain, but he cut me off, and loudly stated, "People Are Born Male or Female!".
At that point one of my arms started shaking uncontrollably, because I felt he was invalidating who I am. I think it was my left arm. He said, "I am not going to hurt you". He asked me if I wanted to be committed to the hospital right now. I said, "No".
I don't how he diagnosed me since I never saw the paperwork. He told me verbally that I have autism, and "delusional thoughts". He prescribed me Resperdal.
I believe he also diagnosed me with "schizo-affective disorder", because later, an autism specialist at another hospital, told me that this supervisor psychiatrist was wrong about me having "schizo-affective disorder". The autism specialist diagnosed me as having Asperger Syndrome.
The supervisor psychiatrist warned me that Resperdal can cause "tardive dyskinesia" which is permanent involuntary body movement. Also, Resperdal was very expensive.
My employer did not like me getting Resperdal because it was like $840/bottle in 2003, and my boss played a phone recording of someone from our insurance company loudly saying into the phone, "WHO THE F**K IS XXXXXXX ?". Where XXXXXXX is my name. Also, the insurance company probably did not like that the doctors two more times tried to have committed for observation.
Despite all that, I eagerly tried Resperdal. I wanted to get better. I was so excited at the pharmacy when I was getting the Resperdal. However, Resperdal made my brain feel strange, and I wanted to lay down because of that feeling.
Resperdal did not work for me. When I told them that Resperdal did not seem to be helping, they switched me to Zyprexa which was even worse.
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