I have trouble if to define myself as straight or bisexual

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I know that I'm not gay, however with my Asperger's Syndrome, I have sometimes found men attractive, in one event a couple of years ago having a crush on a boy at school of my age. I just got quite embarrassed when he spoke to me outside of a classroom, and actually asked "do you like me?". Rarely does this happen anymore, however in many areas I can still define teenage boys of my age in terms of attractiveness better than girls, despite finding certain girls more attractive. There were a number of others of my gender where this happened too, and it would be good knowing from your opinions if I am straight, bisexual or bicurious (I still am not 100% since I'm only 14).

Does my Asperger's Syndrome have an impact on this? Would this kind of behaviour be normal for the majority of teenagers?

You're 14 years old, it isn't your condition that is the problem, it is a common custom among all children in that age to find themselves attracted to the same sex, most just don't mention it in public in fear to be ridiculed for it, but it is completely normal that when you hit puberty, your hormones and body cannot choose for you whether you are attracted to men or women and make you attracted to both, of course, it is only a phase and it vanish afterwards, wait until you are 15 or 16, then your sexuality or at least attractions should be absolute, at the moment you are still being developed and we cannot know what and who you are. Right now, you may like to see at naked males more than females as you are more used to look at your own body and know how your own works more than the opposite sex, but might find girls pretty with clothing on or at least one that you think is pretty (or not), later on, you will probably disgust over it, or maybe like it, but it's unlikely, but who knows...

When I was 12, I thought I knew that I was a homosexual, then not, then yes, then not, then I thought I was a bisexual, I actually studied several sexualities to know fully well what I was when I was about 13 years old, I then thought myself to be an asexual with a high libido, but that was nonsense and then I thought I was something called Heteroflexibility, then I thought myself to be a pansexual, but to be honest, it is too much pressure for a child and I began to ignore it and I started to suppress my attractions until I grew up. When I became older, I was absolute certain that I was an asexual, romantic bisexual, but it might be otherwise for you, no one knows for sure yet.

But to answer your question, it has nothing to do with your psychological condition, it's common among people at your age to feel like this that you feel right now. But if you have a romantic attraction, and not sexual, to a boy, it might be legit that you are some kind of bisexual or boy-liker, go to the boy and ask him if he feels the same way as you and be in a relationship together, sex isn't required, it can be platonic, remember, sexualities are simply labels given by the society for calling something that doesn't exist for something, like dark is the absence of light, but not the opposite, cold is an illusion for what is not warm, but not the opposite as it does not exist.

Here look at all the different kinds of sexual attractions and think for yourself (but not too much over it, remember, you're still a kid and the body may cheat you, but not the mind, if you romantically likes someone from the same sex personality-wise and not because you get aroused from looking at him naked, you may be some kind of bisexual, but not bi-curious):

Homosexual, men only.
Heterosexual, women only.
Bisexual, both.
Pansexual, all, including transgendered, cross-dressers, etc.
Homoflexible, mostly homosexual and little bit heterosexual.
Heteroflexible, mostly heterosexual, and little bit homosexual.
Paraphile, perversion.
Zoophile, animals only.
Pan-Zoophile, animals and humans (variations on "homo-zoophile", "hetero-zoophile", "bi-zoophile" and "homo-pan-zoophile" and "hetero-pan-zoophile" exists too).
Object-sexual, objects, like a chair, stone, glass, doll, toy, pencil, etc.

*Bi-curious is only a phase, not a forever lasting sexuality. *

But I do have a question, what was your response when the boy asked you if you liked him, and how did it transfer back to you and him again and so on?

Last edited by Liveirarica on 12 Oct 2014, 11:07 am, edited 1 time in total.

I just responded no, and it all went back to normal. I don't think he remembers.

it is not unheared of to go trough a little 'bicurious' fase around your age, NTs get it too, start of puberty is a strange state to be in.
just dont pay too much attention to it, in a few years you will know what you really are.

also, remember: noone forces you to choose one of the two (or three) orientations, there's also 'pansexual' for example, for someone who is attracted to every (most) of the iterations of the genderfluid setting.