Trouble Instigating Relationships as a Lesbian Aspie?

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I am positive that posts such as this one have been made in the past by quite a few people, no matter their sexual orientation... But for years, now, I have been feeling very alone at this intersection of my two identities (queer/lesbian and autistic) after I failed to instigate a relationship with another female who used my general social naivete to ward me away and manipulate me into thinking that she reciprocated the feelings that I had for her. The full story is much-too personal and difficult to type in order for me to post here, not to mention, I've been thinking about it enough as of late, and it makes me more and more miserable as it persists in my mind... I miss her very much, and I still contemplate initiating contact with her again, but I am much too afraid to do so. She merely does not understand how painful these past few years have been without her at least as a friend.

I have simply felt extremely lonesome in this because of the fact that I don't know very many LGBTQ people outside of the Internet, and I do not talk to fellow autistics outside of the Internet much, either.