Do other genderqueer people feel this way?

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I am a genderfluid demiboy, and I feel pressured. I want people to recognize that I'm not a girl, but it's just that I don't think people will do that with my gender being fluid. I feel like for them to see me as not a girl, they'd have to see me as a boy, but I'm not a boy. I'm genderfluid. I am also a demiboy, so I am partially male, but I'm not fully. I feel like if I do anything feminine that it will make people think that I'm a girl. I don't want them to think that, because I'm not a girl. I do a few things that are feminine sometimes, but I feel like hiding those things more, because I feel pressured to do so while trying to enforce that I'm not a girl. When I was little, things were much easier. I believed that I was fully transmasculine when I was younger, but little did I know that my gender is much more complicated. What do I do? I feel like people won't take me seriously. I didn't want to come to this, but it's kinda like Miley Cyrus. She went to drastic measures to make sure that people didn't see her as a Disney star anymore. It doesn't necessarily mean that she fully wanted to be a floozy, but it's what it took to not be seen as a Disney star anymore. I want to just be myself like I have been, but I feel like once I come out, for people to take me seriously, I'll have to appear male even more of the time than now. I don't know what to do.

Don't worry about it unless someone asks. If that happens you can just say you're demiboy. They can look that up and get the message.

I know a lot of people that went adjusted their names and their pronouns a few times before settling on something they felt represented them.

I think there are many people that are very anal about "gender norms" but for the most part it depends on who you talk to. Friends and family SHOULD be more accepting but whether that happens or not is another story. Acquaintances however are another story, but then again its really non of their business unless they ask. I do know the struggle myself as a fellow genderqueer who identifies mostly non-binary but partial "both" and some people can be very close minded.

Balancing act and context, for me.
Overcompensation of the sort you're describing is often one of the more cringe-worthy parts of transition. Don't worry, we've all been there. I think it's about finding a middle ground, depending on how you present. If you're doing / wearing something very feminine with stubble and good musculature, for example, people tend to take you as queer and not female. Similarly, being slight and effeminate, people may take you as androgynous rather than male. If you stick to one gender presentation for every aspect of your life then that's fine, but if you switch, it's trickier. I tend to sit in the middle, tipping one way or the other depending on context. Gender neutral clothing is easy enough, as is modifying your vocal tone for masculine or feminine presentation depending on which way you want to go. The male bodied individual can shave and wear cover up, a female bodied person can bind and pack.
I love being read as both male and female by different people in exactly the same context. It's all about who's looking and what they see.
I don't know if you're interested in transition, but I found nonbinary transition did help with the overcompensating. When I had my physical body changed to be neither, I stopped being so paranoid about being automatically taken for my birth gender (such as it was) all the time.

^ now that I think about it how'd you register on here without having to specify a gender??? Unfortunately they make you pick one or you can't register which is really annoying and troublesome ...

Don't hang around a bunch of conservative judgemental people as you navigate through this self discovery process.

Find a group of super cool funky queer people and hang out with them when you get the chance.

I'm a masculine gay guy that almost everyone assumes is straight & I'm fortunate enough not to have gender/perception issues that I have to suppress or hide or exaggerate etc. But still, when I go hang out with a particular party crowd of homos & queers and drag queens and trans people etc.. man-o-man, in such an anyone and anything goes environment it's very very.. freeing. Maybe more so for some of them than myself, but I still get to bask in that vibe and soak it all in. If you can find such a chill group of people to surround yourself with, I HIGHLY recommend it.

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^ I had to go through my self discovery process alone because I didn't know many people nor did I know where to find them. I would hope that those who are genderqueer/genderfluid whatever have a lot better luck then what I had.

I feel part man and part woman but I prefer women for a partner. When I first came out as preferring women I was very worried about all the labels and didn't know which one fitted me or how other people might understand that. I wanted people to know but I didn't know how to do that. Now I don't worry about what label I am and I don't worry about what people think. (I'm more concerned generally with how I act and trying to act in helpful ways to the people around me and to myself.) I just know what I'm like inside and I'm not botherd if other people get it or not.