I have that feeling alot, sometimes I wish that I was straight in order to have the typical family that everyone seems to get. but at other times im glad that im gay because then i get to be more of a unique person and an individual in society.
hell i cant even say gay or boyfriend and such outloud, dont know why, i just cant will myself to say it. its like when i came out to my mother, i almost threw the words up rather then said them. I still cant even believe i did it. and it was months ago
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AQ score: 45
Your neurodiverse (Aspie) score: 174 of 200
Your neurotypical (non-autistic) score: 30 of 200
You are very likely neurodiverse (Aspie)
Officially diagnosed 30th june 2017