The Ultimate Asperger's Song
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This isn't about aspergers specifically, but it reminds me of all me and my mother have been through because of aspergers these last few years
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O9E27VqtQ4M
happens to be only one of 3 songs to ever make me cry.
A lot of radiohead peices get to me aswell.
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'not only has he hacked his intellect away from his feelings, but he has smashed his feelings and his capacity for judgment into smithereens'.
Shallow by Porcupine Tree
I don't remember
Did something in my past create a hole?
Don't use your gender
To drive a stake right through my soul
I live to function
On my own is all I know
No friends to mention
No distraction, nowhere to go
Shallow, shallow Give it to me
Scissors cutting out your anger
Shallow, shallow No good to me, not if you bleed
Bite your tongue, ignore the splinter
This city drains me
Well maybe it's the smell of gasoline
The millions pain me
It's easier to talk to my PC
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There's a great song by Dream Theater (one of my all time favourite bands) called 'Solitary Shell'. Specifically, it's written about people with autism...but a lot of the lyrics can come across as being related to AS as well:
He seemed no different from the rest
Just a healthy normal boy
His mama always did her best
And he was daddy's pride and joy
He learned to walk and talk on time
But never cared much to be held
and steadily he would decline
Into his solitary shell
As a boy he was considered somewhat odd
Kept to himself most of the time
He would daydream in and out of his own world
but in every other way he was fine
He's a Monday morning lunatic
Disturbed from time to time
Lost within himself
In his solitary shell
A temporary catatonic
Madman on occasion
When will he break out
Of his solitary shell
He struggled to get through his day
He was helplessly behind
He poured himself onto the page
Writing for hours at a time
As a man he was a danger to himself
Fearful and sad most of the time
He was drifting in and out of sanity
But in every other way he was fine
He's a Monday morning lunatic
Disturbed from time to time
Lost within himself
In his solitary shell
A momentary maniac
With casual delusions
When will he be let out
Of his solitary shell
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To me, you're a genius. To O'Malley, you're a genius. But to a genius...you're no genius.
MC Frontalot - You Got Asperger's
You got Asperger’s, this ain’t a barbecue.
It’s your whole afternoon though, lost down a rabbit hole,
looking for a timepiece, wonder when your date’s at,
wonder if she’ll visit you at all today — relax.
Wonder how many ribbons to expect in her hair —
to deflect talk of triplets in respect for the pair
or to stare at the bow made of four different colors —
didn’t notice someone talking to you: there were others
in the room, out in the gloom of the periphery.
To shift your focus for a moment is to give the ribbons liberty,
and that’s to suggest they make escape.
This is a secret from the future: can’t rewind like a tape.
Got to make the best and the most of each moment as it happens,
got to keep your eyes on those bows, got to trap in
your vision all four of them ‘cause this is a first:
she might have noticed last time that you like ribbons that are hers.
You got Asperger’s...
And sometimes you wish you didn’t. Sometimes it slips your mind.
But when she’s supposed to visit isn’t one of those times,
and you’re on one of those lines of thought that you encounter
when you’d rather your surroundings were quieter instead of louder
so that you could focus on other than a clock tick.
You don’t want to talk sh** but the one who made the clock made the cog stick.
Minutes are violent noise,
obliterating what you thought of as silent poise .
Miles of boys before you done got crushed
out on a girl like that, her hair flush
with ribbons on all occasions and every day.
If only making study of the bow could stem its getaway.
Letter A S P E R G E R S:
wonder whether she’s so confident with alphabets
that she’d do it backwards skipping alternate letters.
If you offer demonstration, would she consider that clever?
This bitter endeavor: trying to predict a reaction.
You know you’re supposed to try to give the notion traction
but it don’t do nothing ‘cept make the clock tick.
It don’t even do that. Yo, you got Asperger’s, kid.
You got Asperger’s...
And I feel for you, son. I know love is hard.
Can’t even write down all the answers on the back of a card.
From the back and the far end of a cafeteria line
you seem to catch sight of a ribbon. Fabric shines,
and you abandon your tray, leave it clatter on the floor.
You haven’t planned it this way. You can’t look at her no more.
You don’t know what her eyes are like, whether she ever smiles,
whether anything other than how she wears her hair beguiles.
And while some apron ladies holler at you,
you clutch your left ear and stand still like a statue.
You could count cut corn on the floor without subtracting
misplaced fish sticks like Dustin Hoffman overacting.
Ain’t this already a scene in need of a fast forward?
Why won’t the lunch people hush, do they court discord?
You think you see a flash of color fleeing; it could be worse:
you could have known how many ribbons there are, if they were hers.
You got Asperger’s...
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Leading a double life and loving it (but exhausted).
Likely ADHD instead of what I've been diagnosed with before.
Echo by Jason Walker. I think it reflects on the loneliness and Isolation we sometimes feel. It does for me. It's a beautiful song...
[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pxpLxb5jHO0[/youtube]
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"I am what I am, dude. Don't try to change me." ~ Rajesh Koothrappali
http://www.youtube.com/user/AnimatedSquirrel
Here are the lyrics.
Hello...
Hello...
Anybody out there
Cause I don't hear a sound
Alone,
Alone,
I don't really know where the world is,
But I miss it now
I'm out on the edge and I'm screamin' my name like a fool at the top of my lungs
And sometimes when I close my eyes I pretend I'm alright but it's never enough
Cause my
Echo,
Echo,
Is the only voice comin' back
Shadow,
Shadow,
Is the only friend that I have.
Listen...
Listen...
I would take a whisper if
That's all you had to give.
But it
Isn't
Isn't
You could come and save me and
Try to chase the crazy right out of my head
I'm out on the edge and I'm screamin' my name like a fool at the top of my lungs
And sometimes when I close my eyes I pretend I'm alright but it's never enough
Cause my
Echo,
Echo,
Is the only voice comin' back
Shadow,
Shadow,
Is the only friend that I have.
I don't wanna be an island...
I just wanna feel alive and
Get to see your face again
I don't wanna be an island...
I just wanna feel alive and
Get to see your face again
But till then...
Just my
Echo...
My shadow...
You're my only friend, and I'm
Out on the edge and I'm screamin' my name like a fool at the top of my lungs
And sometimes when I close my eyes I pretend I'm alright,
But it's never enough...
Cause my
Echo,
Echo...
Oh, my
Shadow,
Shadow
Hello...
Hello...
Anybody out there...
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"I am what I am, dude. Don't try to change me." ~ Rajesh Koothrappali
http://www.youtube.com/user/AnimatedSquirrel
We Don't Need Another Hero by Tina Turner resonates with me. I know it has nothing to do with autism, yet there are lyrics that are powerful and remind me of my own struggles ("We are the children, last generation, we are the ones they left behind...") and the struggles of all those who were left to fend for themselves - all the undiagnosed adults that slipped through the cracks.
[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dq4aOaDXIfY[/youtube]
Gasoline
Halsey
Lyrics
Are you insane like me?
Been in pain like me?
Bought a hundred dollar bottle of champagne like me?
Just to pour that Motherf***er down the drain like me?
Would you use your water bill to dry the stain like me?
Are you high enough without the Mary Jane like me?
Do you tear yourself apart to entertain like me?
Do the people whisper 'bout you on the train like me?
Saying that you shouldn't waste your pretty face like me?
And all the people say
You can't wake up, this is not a dream
You're part of a machine, you are not a human being
With your face all made up, living on a screen
Low on self esteem, so you run on gasoline
I think there's a flaw in my code
These voices won't leave me alone
Well my heart is gold and my hands are cold
Are you deranged like me?
Are you strange like me?
Lighting matches just to swallow up the flame like me?
Do you call yourself a f*****g hurricane like me?
Pointing fingers cause you'll never take the blame like me?
And all the people say
You can't wake up, this is not a dream
You're part of a machine, you are not a human being
With your face all made up, living on a screen
Low on self esteem, so you run on gasoline
I think there's a flaw in my code
These voices won't leave me alone
Well my heart is gold and my hands are cold
Also this one when I get an asperger meltdown:
Control
Lyrics
They send me away to find them a fortune
A chest filled with diamonds and gold
The house was awake
With shadows and monsters
The hallways they echoed and groaned
I sat alone, in bed 'til the morning
I'm crying, "They're coming for me"
And I tried to hold these secrets inside me
My mind's like a deadly disease
I'm bigger than my body
I'm colder than this home
I'm meaner than my demons
I'm bigger than these bones
And all the kids cried out,
"Please stop, you're scaring me"
I can't help this awful energy
Goddamn right, you should be scared of me
Who is in control?
I paced around for hours, on empty
I jumped at the slightest of sounds
And I couldn't stand the person inside me
I turned all the mirrors around
I'm bigger than my body
I'm colder than this home
I'm meaner than my demons
I'm bigger than these bones
And all the kids cried out,
"Please stop, you're scaring me"
I can't help this awful energy
Goddamn right, you should be scared of me
Who is in control?
I'm well acquainted
With villains that live in my bed
They beg me to write them
So they'll never die when I'm dead
And I've grown familiar
With villains that live in my head
They beg me to write them
So I'll never die when I'm dead
I'm bigger than my body
I'm colder than this home
I'm meaner than my demons
I'm bigger than these bones
And all the kids cried out,
"Please stop, you're scaring me"
I can't help this awful energy
Goddamn right, you should be scared of me
Who is in control?
And all the kids cried out,
"Please stop, you're scaring me"
I can't help this awful energy
Goddamn right, you should be scared of me
Who is in control?
I don't know why, but this reminds me of an Aspie breakup song: Avril Lavigne-Together.
Something just isn't right
I can feel it inside
The truth isn't far behind me
You can't deny
When I turn the lights out
When I close my eyes
Reality overcomes me
I'm living a lie
When I'm alone I
Feel so much better
And when Im around you
I don't feel
[Chorus:]
Together
It doesn't feel right at all
Together
Together we've built a wall
Together
Holding hands we'll fall
Hands we'll fall
This has gone on so long
I realize that i need
Something good to rely on
Something for me
When I'm alone I
Feel so much better
And when Im around you
I don't feel
[Chorus]
My heart is broken
I'm lying here
My thoughts are choking on you my dear
On you my dear
On you my dear
When I'm alone I
Feel so much better
And when Im around you
I don't feel
[Chorus x2]
When I'm around you
When I'm around you
I don't feel together
I don't feel together
When I'm around you
When I'm around you
I don't feel together, no
I don't feel together
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Marina and The Diamonds - Solitaire
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DSM 5: Autism Spectrum Disorder, DSM IV: Aspergers Moderate Severity
“My autism is not a superpower. It also isn’t some kind of god-forsaken, endless fountain of suffering inflicted on my family. It’s just part of who I am as a person”. - Sara Luterman
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Depeche Mode - But Not Tonight
All on my own
How good it feels to be alone
Tonight
And I haven't felt so alive
In years
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DSM 5: Autism Spectrum Disorder, DSM IV: Aspergers Moderate Severity
“My autism is not a superpower. It also isn’t some kind of god-forsaken, endless fountain of suffering inflicted on my family. It’s just part of who I am as a person”. - Sara Luterman
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Off topic but Three Dog Night has always been an underappreciated act. The "oldies" stations rarely play them and if they do it's only "Joy To The World". Yet from '69 through '75 they had 21 consectutive top 40 singles which were better then most of the songs that the "greatest hits" stations play over and over.
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Professionally Identified and joined WP August 26, 2013
DSM 5: Autism Spectrum Disorder, DSM IV: Aspergers Moderate Severity
“My autism is not a superpower. It also isn’t some kind of god-forsaken, endless fountain of suffering inflicted on my family. It’s just part of who I am as a person”. - Sara Luterman
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