What song best describes you as an Aspie?

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Good choice with the Beatles tracks. They certainly had a knack for surreal imagery that could strike a chord anyway.

I have quite a few of these songs, depening on my feelings at any given time. Right now, it is Apology by the Go-Go's.

I will find a way to move on.
Discontent has had it's day, the pleasure's gone.
If you asked me to describe,
What I could want with all I've got, I'd say,
"Good day"s and "thank you"s
Instead of all these question marks.

When I found you, I thought my life was charmed
And we'd be safe from what
Has happened now.
Has happened now.

Apology (I'm sorry),
Apology (I'm sorry),
Apology, I'm sorry but,
I have no regrets.

No-one knows just why,
I can't stay.
Starting over's all right,
The answer far away.
I know I may seem careless,
My moods they change like the weather.
So I ask your forgiveness,
While I pull myself together.

In the meantime,
I live, I work, I wait, I hope,
I still have faith.
That what was mine,
Can still be mine.

Apology (I'm sorry),
Apology (I'm sorry),
Apology, I'm sorry but,
I have no regrets.

Joy Division - Atmosphere

Walk in silence,
Don't walk away, in silence.
See the danger,
Always danger,
Endless talking,
Life rebuilding,
Don't walk away.

Walk in silence,
Don't turn away, in silence.
Your confusion,
My illusion,
Worn like a mask of self-hate,
Confronts and then dies.
Don't walk away.

People like you find it easy,
Naked to see,
Walking on air.
Hunting by the rivers,
Through the streets,
Every corner abandoned too soon,
Set down with due care.
Don't walk away in silence,
Don't walk away.




The Weakerthans - Watermark

I count to three and grin.
You smile and let me in.
We sit and watch the wall you painted purple.
Speech will spill on space.
Our little cups of grace.
But pauses rattle on about the way that you cut the snow-fence,
braved the blood,
the metal of those hearts that you always end up pressing your tongue to.
How your body still remembers things you told it to forget.
How those furious affections followed you.
I've got this store-bought way of saying I'm okay,
and you learned how to cry in total silence.
We're talented and bright.
We're lonely and uptight.
We've found some lovely ways to disappoint,
but the airport's almost empty this time of the year,
so let's go play on a baggage carousel.
Set our watches forward like we're just arriving here
from a past we left in a place we knew too well.
(Hold on to the corners of today,
and we'll fold it up to save until it's needed. Stand still.
Let me scrub that brackish line that you got
when something rose and then receded.

Time by, Pink Floyd

Disarm by The Smashing Pumpkins seems to describe my life over the years as an undiagnosed aspie pretty well.

"Disarm you with a smile" and "Cut you like you want me to" is kinda me trying to be what I think is expected of me.

The lonliness and resulting bitterness and a boy so old in his shoes is pretty self explanatory to me.

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Disarm you with a smile
And cut you like you want me to
Cut that little child
Inside of me and such a part of you
The years burn.

Disarm you with a smile
And leave you like you left me here
To wither in denial
The bitterness of one who's left alone
The years burn.

I used to be a little boy
So old in my shoes
And what I choose is my choice
What's a boy supposed to do
The killer in me is the killer in you, my love
I send this smile over to you.

I Am A Rock
by Simon and Garfunkel



A winter's day
In a deep and dark December
I am alone
Gazing from my window
To the streets below
On a freshly fallen silent shroud of snow
I am a rock
I am an island

I have walls
A fortress deep and mighty
That none may penetrate
I have no need of friendship
Friendship causes pain
It's laughter and it's loving I disdain
I am a rock
I am an island

Don't talk of love
Well I've heard the word before
It's sleeping in my memory
I won't disturb the slumber
Of feelings that have died
If I never loved, I never would have cried
I am a rock
I am an island

I have books
And my poetry to protect me
I am shielded in my armor
Hiding in my room
Safe within my room
I touch no one and no one touches me
I am a rock
I am an island

And a rock feels no pain
And an island never cries

There are a couple of Broadway songs that describe my confidence when it comes to dating.
If I can't Love Her from Beauty and the Beast
Who will Love me as I am from Side Show

Wow people have posted some really good songs in here, I had never thought of the Beatles ones in that light before

I've always thought "When I'm Gone" by Three Doors Down fit AS really well. It rings true with my experience of wanting badly to have people love me but being unable to understand their rules:

There's another world inside of me
That you may never see
There're secrets in this life
That I can't hide
Somewhere in this darkness
There's a light that I can't find
Maybe it's too far away...
Or maybe I'm just blind...

Or maybe I'm just blind...

[Chorus]
So hold me when I'm here
Right me when I'm wrong
Hold me when I'm scared
And love me when I'm gone
Everything I am
And everything in me
Wants to be the one
You wanted me to be
I'll never let you down
Even if I could
I'd give up everything
If only for your good
So hold me when I'm here
Right me when I'm wrong
You can hold me when I'm scared
You won't always be there
So love me when I'm gone

Love me when I'm gone...

When your education X-Ray
Cannot see under my skin
I won't tell you a damn thing
That I could not tell my friends
Roaming through this darkness
I'm alive but I'm alone
Part of me is fighting this
But part of me is gone

[Chorus]

Or maybe I'm just blind...

[Chorus]

Love me when I'm gone...

Love me when I'm gone
When I'm Gone
When I'm Gone
When I'm Gone

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And on a more lighthearted note, "Flowers on the Wall" by the Statler Brothers (redone by Eric Heatherly) feels very Aspie as well:

I keep hearin' you're concerned about my happiness
But all that thought you're givin' me is conscience I guess
If I was walkin' in your shoes, I wouldn't worry none
While you 'n' your friends are worried about me I'm havin' lots of fun

Countin' flowers on the wall
That don't bother me at all
Playin' solitaire till dawn with a deck of fifty-one
Smokin' cigarettes and watchin' Captain Kangaroo
Now don't tell me I've nothin' to do

Last night I dressed in tails, pretended I was on the town
As long as I can dream it's hard to slow this swinger down
So please don't give a thought to me, I'm really doin' fine
You can always find me here, I'm havin' quite a time

Countin' flowers on the wall
That don't bother me at all
Playin' solitaire till dawn with a deck of fifty-one
Smokin' cigarettes and watchin' Captain Kangaroo
Now don't tell me I've nothin' to do

It's good to see you, I must go, I know I look a fright
Anyway my eyes are not accustomed to this light
And my shoes are not accustomed to this hard concrete
So I must go back to my room and make my day complete

Countin' flowers on the wall
That don't bother me at all
Playin' solitaire till dawn with a deck of fifty-one
Smokin' cigarettes and watchin' Captain Kangaroo
Now don't tell me I've nothin' to do

Don't tell me I've nothin' to do


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Finally, there's "Numb" by Pet Shop Boys. I won't post the entire song (lyrics can be found here: http://www.lyricsandsongs.com/song/687734.html) but there's one verse that really fits how I feel with sensory overload:


Can't find no space to breathe
World's closing in
Right on me now
Well that's how it feels
That's how it feels
Too much light
There's too much sound
Wanna turn it off
Wanna shut it out
I need some relief
Think that like I think too much
I've seen too much
There is just too much
Thought in my head

I wanna be numb

Love, Aspie style.

Radiohead
"Creep"

When you were here before
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so f***ing special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts
I want to have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice when I'm not around
You're so f***ing special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell I'm doing here?
I don't belong here

She's running out again
She's running out
She runs runs runs

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so f***ing special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here
I don't belong here

I used to love that song when it came out, liked the melancolic tone and I felt identified with the lyrics

Yeah, me too.

"Behind blue eyes" by the who/Limp bizkit I like both versions,

No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes
And no one knows
What it's like to be hated
To be fated to telling only lies

But my dreams they aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be
I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free

No one knows what its like
To feel these feelings
Like i do, and i blame you!
No one bites back as hard
On their anger
None of my pain and woe
Can show through

Discover l.i.m.p. say it [x4]
No one knows what its like
To be mistreated, to be defeated
Behind blue eyes
No one knows how to say
That they're sorry and don't worry
I'm not telling lies

No one knows what its like
To be the bad man, to be the sad man
Behind blue eyes.

"I Started A Joke" by the Bee Gees

Pink Floyd - "Keep Talking"

There's a silence surrounding me
I can't seem to think straight
I sit in a corner
And no-one can bother me
I think I should speak now (Why won't you talk to me?)
I can't seem to speak now (You never talk to me)
My words won't come out right (What are you thinking?)
I feel like I'm drowning (What are you feeling?)

I'm feeling weak now
But I can't show my weakness
I sometimes wonder
Where do we go from here?

Or Rush - "Open Secrets"

It went right by me
At the time it went over my head
I was looking out the window
I should have looked at your face instead
It went right by me
Just another wall
There should have been a moment
When we let our barriers fall
I never meant what you're thinking...
That's not what I meant at all.

[Chorus:]
Well, I guess we all have these feelings
We can't leave unreconciled
Some of them burned on our ceilings
Some of them learned as a child
The things that we're concealing
Will never let us grow
Time will do its healing
You've got to let it go

Closed for my protection
Open to your scorn
Between these two directions
My heart is sometimes torn
I lie awake with my secrets
Spinning around my head
Something that somehow escaped me
Something you shouldn't have said
I was looking out the window
I should have looked at your face instead.

[Chorus]

I find no absolution
In my rational point of view
Maybe some things are instinctive
But there's one thing you could do
You could try to understand me
I could try to understand you
You could try to understand me
I could try to understand you...

gob's Your too cool:
I know that you’re not too enthused
Iou’ve got just me around all night
I’m totally boring i don’t interest you
At all to say the least
You think i’m made up of straight lines
Always contradict myself
I’m not stupid, i’m not smart
It’s like i’m not even there at all
Got to talk over sounds of
People sucking face and
I’ve got nothing left to say
I would take a stupid chance but
I hear people sucking face...
I feel so out of place
Why don’t you treat me fair
Stick your nose in the air
And act like i’m in the way
I can guarantee you’re as much a
Loser as me and you’ll realize one day
On the way out of your life

Magnet - Nothing Hurts Now

I first heard it on Dreamfall - The Longest Journey, it hit me pretty hard, made me feel that the world is empty and barren of purpose, meaning, originality, sense, ect. I still can't chake the feeling.

There was a time you made me believe
That I'd recieve
Something that would hold,
And wouldn't leave me cold.

And there was a line
You made me cross
So the two of us
Would have the strength to bare
The crosses we couldn't share

But nothing hurts now.
That didn't hurt before.
So I won't pretend
That it was the end of the world.
'Cause nothing hurts now.
No...

There was a time
I made you smile.
And for a while
I was beautiful to you.
I was beautiful like you.

But these things often pass,
And for you, they just wouldn't last.
So I was first to know
When you had to go.

But nothing hurts now.
That didn't hurt before.
So I won't pretend,
That it was the end of the world,
'Cause nothing hurts now.

No nothing hurts now.
That didn't hurt before.
So I won't pretend,
That it was the end of the world,
'Cause nothing hurts now
No nothing hurts now

Styx's Too Much Time On My Hands
Sitting on this barstool talking like a damn fool
Got the twelve o'clock news blues
And I've given up hope on the afternoon soaps
And a bottle of cold brew
Is it any wonder I'm not crazy? Is it any wonder I'm sane at all
Well I'm so tired of losing- I got nothing to do and all day to do it
I go out cruisin' but I've no place to go and all night to get there
Is it any wonder I'm not a criminal
Is it any wonder I'm not in jail
Is it any wonder I've got

Too much time on my hands, it's ticking away with my sanity
I've got too much time on my hands, it's hard to believe such a calamity
I've got too much time on my hands and it's ticking away from me
Too much time on my hands, too much time on my hands
Too much time on my hands

Well, I'm a jet fuel genius - I solve all the world's problems
Without even trying
I have dozens of friends and the fun never ends
That is, as long as I'm buying
Is it any wonder I'm not the president
(He's not the president)
Is it any wonder I'm null and void Is it any wonder I've got

Too much time on my hands, it's ticking away at my sanity
I've got too much time on my hands, it's hard to believe such a calamity
I've got too much time on my hands and it's ticking away from me
Too much time on my hands, too much time on my hands
Too much time on my hands