_________________ ASD level 1, ADHD-C, most likely have dyscalculia as well. RSD hurts. RAADs: 104 | ASQ: 30 | CAT-Q: 139 | Aspie Quiz: 116/200 (84% probability of being atypical)
Also diagnosed with: seasonal depression, anxiety, OCD
Joined: 25 Nov 2022 Age: 31 Gender: Non-binary Posts: 1,362 Location: USA
16 May 2023, 1:23 am
This song reflects Avoidant Personality Disorder, to me
Am I going crazy? Would I even know? Am I right back where I started fourteen years ago? Wanna guess the ending? If it ever does I swear to God that all I've ever wanted was A little bit of everything, all of the time A bit of everything, all of the time Apathy's a tragedy, and boredom is a crime I'm finished playing, and I'm staying inside If I wake up in a house that's full of smoke I'll panic, so call me up and tell me a joke When I'm fully irrelevant and totally broken, damn it Call me up and tell me a joke Oh, s**t, you're really joking at a time like this? Well, well, look who's inside again Went out to look for a reason to hide again Well, well, buddy, you found it Now come out with your hands up We've got you surrounded
_________________ ASD level 1, ADHD-C, most likely have dyscalculia as well. RSD hurts. RAADs: 104 | ASQ: 30 | CAT-Q: 139 | Aspie Quiz: 116/200 (84% probability of being atypical)
Also diagnosed with: seasonal depression, anxiety, OCD
Joined: 25 Nov 2022 Age: 31 Gender: Non-binary Posts: 1,362 Location: USA
21 May 2023, 8:45 pm
This song is basically how my AVPD + seasonal depression manifests, but most of the time I'm not actively suicidal like the person in the song is.
Quote:
Day after day I found my way, sleepwalking through Like this I’ll fade without a trace, it’s for the best I do
Just by living I’m nothing for another day Hundred lives, never knowing me or anything Nobody wanted me, no one there to need Why would I wanna live in the kind of world I see?
_________________ ASD level 1, ADHD-C, most likely have dyscalculia as well. RSD hurts. RAADs: 104 | ASQ: 30 | CAT-Q: 139 | Aspie Quiz: 116/200 (84% probability of being atypical)
Also diagnosed with: seasonal depression, anxiety, OCD
"Cause in the thick of darkened days, we know We could blame the world forever, We could just escape together, So are we breaking out or are we breaking down?, We can't blame this world forever..."
This song reminds me of the lowest moments of my life. I would spend a lot of my time blaming the world for all of my problems and lack of energy during those months.
_________________ Diagnosed with autism as a toddler and diagnosed with general anxiety disorder at the age of 9.
Joined: 25 Nov 2022 Age: 31 Gender: Non-binary Posts: 1,362 Location: USA
23 May 2023, 4:30 pm
This song is basically what Avoidant Personality Disorder be like
'Cause I'm like yes and no Wait, I don't know (kn-kn-know) I think I'm dying Hold up, I'm invincible (ether) Yeah, I'm like yes (yes) and no (no) Wait, I don't know I'll pull you closer into me And I'm pushing you away
Don't know if I'm feeling happy (no) Im kinda confused, I'm not in the mood to try and fix me (uh) Do I feel like being alone or with all of my friends? f**k, I don't know (f**k I don't no) If I should say or if I should go (huh)
I don't have the answers you need 'Cause I live in the in-between, ha-ha
_________________ ASD level 1, ADHD-C, most likely have dyscalculia as well. RSD hurts. RAADs: 104 | ASQ: 30 | CAT-Q: 139 | Aspie Quiz: 116/200 (84% probability of being atypical)
Also diagnosed with: seasonal depression, anxiety, OCD
When I think of those east end lights Muggy nights The curtains drawn In the little room downstairs Prima Donna Lord, you really should have been there Sittin like a princess perched in her electric chair And it's one more beer and I don't hear you anymore We've all gone crazy lately My friend's out there rolling round the basement floor
And someone saved my life tonight Sugar Bear You almost had your hooks in me Didn't you dear? You nearly had me roped and tied Altar-bound Hypnotized Sweet freedom whispered in my ear You're a butterfly And butterflies are free to fly Fly away High away Bye bye
I never realized the passing hours Of evening showers A slip noose hanging in my darkest dreams I'm strangled by your haunted social scene Just a pawn outplayed by a dominating queen It's four o'clock in the morning Damn it! Listen to me good - I'm sleeping with myself tonight Saved in time Thank God my music's still alive
And someone saved my life tonight Sugar Bear You almost had your hooks in me Didn't you dear? You nearly had me roped and tied Altar-bound Hypnotized Sweet freedom whispered in my ear You're a butterfly And butterflies are free to fly Fly away High away Bye bye
I would have walked head on into the deep end of the river Clinging to your stocks and bonds Paying your H.P. demands forever They're coming in the morning with a truck to take me home Someone saved my life tonight Someone saved my life tonight
So save your strength and run the field You play alone And someone saved my life tonight Sugar Bear You almost had your hooks in me Didn't you dear? You nearly had me roped and tied Altar-bound Hypnotized Sweet freedom whispered in my ear You're a butterfly And butterflies are free to fly Fly away High away Bye bye
This is my anthem every year on 7th June as I celebrate yet another year of freedom. I call this my Freedom Day -- The day I was rescued from 7 years of horrific trauma.
I couldn't have done it without two very special people who intervened. This song tells a bit of what went down. It's uncanny actually. It's been onward and upward ever since (OK, maybe not always ... but almost)
Sending love to everyone who has helped me survive another trip around the sun.
#FreedomDay14
_________________ I never give you my number, I only give you my situation. Beatles
Joined: 25 Nov 2022 Age: 31 Gender: Non-binary Posts: 1,362 Location: USA
07 Jun 2023, 10:30 pm
I associate this one with my personality disorder.
I have this thing where I get older but just never wiser Midnights become my afternoons When my depression works the graveyard shift All of the people I've ghosted stand there in the room
I should not be left to my own devices They come with prices and vices I end up in crisis (tale as old as time) I wake up screaming from dreaming One day I'll watch as you're leaving 'Cause you got tired of my scheming (For the last time)
[...] It's me, hi, I'm the problem, it's me It's me, hi, I'm the problem, it's me It's me, hi, everybody agrees, everybody agrees
_________________ ASD level 1, ADHD-C, most likely have dyscalculia as well. RSD hurts. RAADs: 104 | ASQ: 30 | CAT-Q: 139 | Aspie Quiz: 116/200 (84% probability of being atypical)
Also diagnosed with: seasonal depression, anxiety, OCD
Joined: 25 Nov 2022 Age: 31 Gender: Non-binary Posts: 1,362 Location: USA
11 Jun 2023, 7:56 pm
Song is about the affects of abuse and may be triggering
Quote:
In the dark with the music on Wishing I was somewhere else Taking all your anger out on me (somebody help) I would rather rot alone Than spend a minute with you I'm gone, I'm gone
And you can't stop me from falling apart 'Cause my self-destruction is all your fault How could you? How could you? How could you hate me? When all I ever wanted to be was you? How could you? How could you? How could you love me? When all you ever gave me were open wounds? Open wounds
Downstairs the enemy sleeps Leaving the TV on Watching all the dreams we had turn into static (static) Doesn't matter what I do Nothing's gonna change I'm never good enough
And you can't stop me from falling apart 'Cause my self-destruction is all your fault How could you? How could you? How could you hate me? When all I ever wanted to be was you? How could you? How could you? How could you love me? When all you ever gave me were open wounds?
Tell me why you broke me down And betrayed my trust in you I'm not giving up, giving in, when will this war end? When will it end?
You can't stop me from falling apart You can't stop me from falling apart You can't stop me from falling apart 'Cause my self-destruction is all your fault
_________________ ASD level 1, ADHD-C, most likely have dyscalculia as well. RSD hurts. RAADs: 104 | ASQ: 30 | CAT-Q: 139 | Aspie Quiz: 116/200 (84% probability of being atypical)
Also diagnosed with: seasonal depression, anxiety, OCD
Joined: 19 Dec 2022 Gender: Female Posts: 868 Location: Court of Fontaine
11 Jun 2023, 8:18 pm
Autism, perhaps ADHD:
I don't really know how to put in into words but the lyrics capture my experience with it. this is also my comfort song
Lyrics:⦑ Verse 1 ⦒ All day today, the same day has come A different day from everyone (Whether I will or not, whether I would or not wow) It's like my time was frozen still A girl passed by a dog's bark bow wow The smell from that café makes me hungry I knew all about it (Whether I will or not, whether I would or not wow) It's like my time was frozen still
⦑ Pre-Chorus ⦒ Not much, No Prob' Even if the world doesn't change I'm a cloud that don't have shapes
⦑ Chorus ⦒ My password is out of the box (Woah) Out of the box (Woah) Out of the box (Woah) Out of the box
⦑ Verse 2 ⦒ Happiness issued plenty It will soon come out all right Thеre is the conviction (by lie), is it so I walk this path еveryday But somehow there is a world (out there) Yet to be discovered
⦑ Pre-Chorus ⦒ That's right, No Prob' Even if the world doesn't change Like the wind, I'm everywhere
⦑ Chorus ⦒ My password is out of the box (Woah) Out of the box (Woah) Out of the box (Woah) Out of the box
⦑ Bridge ⦒ I'm alive, I'm alive It is dramatic with just that My frozen time is My frozen time My frozen time My frozen time moves again
⦑ Chorus ⦒ Box (woah) Out of the box Out of the box (woah) Out of the box Out of the box Out of the box (all day today, the same day has come) Out of the box
_________________ My god. jelly donuts are so scary.