What song best describes you as an Aspie?

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Isobel by Bjork or Spacedog by Tori Amos.

Black Sabbath - Iron Man

Black Sabbath - Paranoid


Finished with my woman
'cause she couldn't help me with my mind
People think I'm insane
because I am frowning all the time

All day long I think of things
but nothing seems to satisfy
Think I'll lose my mind
if I don't find something to pacify

Can you help me, occupy my brain?
Oh yeah!

I need someone to show me
the things in life that I can't find
I can't see the things that make true
happiness, I must be blind

Make a joke and I will sigh
and you will laugh and I will cry
Happiness I cannot feel
and love to me is so unreal

And so as you hear these words
telling you now of my state
I tell you to enjoy life
I wish I could but it's too late

I could probably go on forever about this; just reading the thread title caused upwards of forty songs to pop into my head, although many of them have already been covered here. I didn't spot "Solitary Shell" by Dream Theater here, so I think I'll go with that one, at least for now. My apologies if I butcher the lyrics; I'm typing these from memory.

He seemed no different from the rest,
just a healthy normal boy.
His mama always did her best,
and he was Daddy's pride and joy.
He learned to walk and talk on time,
but never cared much to be held;
and steadily he would decline
into his solitary shell.

As a boy, he was considered somewhat odd;
kept to himself most of the time.
He would daydream in and out of his own world,
but in every other way, he was fine.

He's a Monday morning lunatic,
disturbed from time to time;
lost within himself
in his solitary shell.
A temporary catatonic madman on occasion;
when will he break out of his solitary shell?

He struggled to get through his day;
he was helplessly behind.
He poured himself onto the page,
writing for hours at a time.

As a man, he was a danger to himself;
fearful inside most of the time.
He was drifting in and out of sanity,
but in every other way, he was fine.

He's a Monday morning lunatic,
disturbed from time to time;
lost within himself
in his solitary shell.
A momentary maniac with casual delusions;
when will he be let out of his solitary shell?[b][/b][b][/b]

I know dont about as an aspie but Megadeth - Trust is my song.

A lot of Pink Floyd songs!! !! !!

I'm partial to "Comfortably Numb"

I also like the line: Hanging on in quiet desperation is the English (Aspie) way.

"Through the Glass"-Stone Sour

I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
Oh God it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever feels like home
Sitting all alone inside your head...

'Cause I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
All I know is that it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever feels like home,
Sitting all alone inside your head...

How do you feel, that is the question
But I forget you don't expect an easy answer
When something like a soul becomes initialized
And folded up like paper dolls and little notes
You can't expect a big of hope
So while you're outside looking in describing what you see
Remember what you're staring at is me

'Cause I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
All I know is that it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever feels like home,
Sitting all alone inside your head...

How much is real? So much to question
An epidemic of the mannequins contaminating everything
We thought came from the heart,
But never did right from the start
Just listen to the noises
Null and void instead of voices
Before you tell yourself
It's just a different scene
Remember it's just different from what you've seen

(chorus)

And it's the stars...
The stars... that shine for you
and it's the stars...
the stars... that lie to you...

well, this song is just a combo of pity-poty-ness and life....ENJOY!

Mad World
Gary Jules

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going no where, going no where

Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow

And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad World
Mad world

Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
And I feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen

Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me

And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad World
Mad World

Enlarging your world
Mad World.

James - Sit Down

Ill sing myself to sleep
A song from the darkest hour
Secrets I cant keep
Inside of the day
Swing from high to deep
Extremes of sweet and sour
Hope that God exists
I hope I pray

Drawn by the undertow
My life is out of control
I believe this wave will bear my weight
So let it flow

Oh sit down
Sit down next to me
Sit down, down, down, down, down
In sympathy

Now I'm relieved to hear
That you've been to some far out places
Its hard to carry on
When you feel all alone
Now Ive swung back down again
Its worse than it was before
If I had'nt seen such riches
I could live with being poor
Oh sit down
Sit down next to me
Sit down, down, down, down, down
In sympathy

Those who feel the breath of sadness
Sit down next to me
Those who find they're touched by madness
Sit down next to me
Those who find themselves ridiculous
Sit down next to me
Love, in fear, in hate, in tears

Down
Down

Oh sit down
Sit down next to me
Sit down, down, down, down, down
In sympathy

Oh sit down
Sit down next to me
Sit down, down, down, down, down
In sympathy

Down


Staind - Schizophrenic Conversations

Are you afraid
Afraid of the truth
In the mirror staring back at you
The image is cracked
But so is the view here
And the strength of a tree
Begins in the roots
That I tend to bury into you
At least now the storm
Can't blow me away

So crawl inside
My head with me
I'll show you how
It feels to be
To blame like me

Should I be afraid
Of this face that I see
In the mirror staring back at me
So cold were the days
When I listened to you
And you say that I'm weak
So show me the proof
Because I still exist inspite of you
But I won't compete
With you every day

So crawl inside
My head with me
I'll show you how
It feels to be
To blame like me

Schizophrenic conversations that I'm always having with myself
I hear these
Voices in my head competing, maybe I could use a little help
I still have
Schizophrenic conversations when there's no one else around to hear
I long for
Solitude and peace within me, void of all the anger and the fear

So crawl inside
My head with me
And I'll show you how it feels to be
f****d up like me
I'll show you how it feels to be
To blame like me
Ashamed like me

Styx's Mr.Roboto

My favourite remains "Simple" by The Beta Band:

I tried to see it their way
I tried to be alone
I tried to do my own thing but
The trouble with your own thing is
You end up on your own

Can you hear me?
Can you hear me?

The Rhubarb Tart song

I want another slice of rhubarb tart.
I want another lovely slice.
I'm not disparaging the blueberry pie
But rhubarb tart is oh so very nice.
A rhubarb what? A rhubarb tart!
A whatbarb tart? A rhubarb tart!
I want another slice of rhubarb tart!

The principles of modern philosophy
Were postulated by Descartes.
Discarding everything he wasn't certain of
He said 'I think therefore I am a rhubarb tart.'
A rhubarb what? A rhubarb tart!
A Rene who? Rene Descartes!
Poor nut he thought he was a rhubarb tart!

Read all the existentialist philosophers,
Like Schopenhauer and Jean-Paul Sartre.
Even Martin Heidegger agrees on one thing:
Eternal happiness is rhubarb tart.
A rhubarb what? A rhubarb tart!
A Jean-Paul who? A Jean-Paul Sartre!
Eternal happiness is rhubarb tart.

A rhubarb tart has fascinated all the poets.
Especially the immortal bard.
He caused Richard the Third to call on Bosworth Field:
'My kingdom for a slice of rhubarb tart!'
A rhubarb what? A rhubarb bard!
Immortal what? Immortal tart!
As rhymes go that is really pretty bard!

-- John Cleese

CREEP Radiohead

When you were here before
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so f#@king special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts
I want to have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice when I'm not around
You're so f#@king special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell I'm doing here?
I don't belong here

She's running out again
She's running out
She runs runs runs

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so f#@king special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here
I don't belong here

another by radiohead

KARMA POLICE
Karma police, arrest this man, he talks in maths
He buzzes like a fridge, hes like a detuned radio
Karma police, arrest this girl, her hitler hairdo, is making me feel ill
And we have crashed her party
This is what you get, this is what you get
This is what you get, when you mess with us

Karma police, Ive given all I can, its not enough
Ive given all I can, but were still on the payroll
This is what you get, this is what you get
This is what you get, when you mess with us
And for a minute there, I lost myself, I lost myself
And for a minute there, I lost myself, I lost myself

For a minute there, I lost myself, I lost myself

I couldn't help myself - one more:

JANE SAYS
Jane's Addiction

Jane says
I'm done with Sergio
He treats me like a ragdoll
She hides
The television
Says I don't owe him nothing,
But if he comes back again
Tell him to wait right here for me
Or just
Try again tomorrow
I'm gonna kick tomorrow
Gonna kick tomorrow

Jane says
Have you seen my wig around?
I feel naked without it
She knows
They all want her to go
But thats O.K.
She dont like them anyway
Jane says
She's goin away to spain
When she gets my money saved
She's gonna start tomorrow
I'm gonna kick tomorrow
Gonna kick tomorrow

She gets mad
Starts to cry
She takes a swing but
She cant hit
She don't mean no harm
She just don't know
What else to do about it

Jane goes
To the store at 8:00
She walk up on St. Andrews
She waits
And gets her dinner there
She pulls her dinner
From her pocket
Jane says
She's never been in love
No, she don't know what it is
Only knows if someone wants her
I want them if they want me
I only know they want me

She gets mad
And she starts to cry
She takes a swing man
She cant hit!
She don't mean no harm
She just dont know
What else to do about it

Jane says
Jane says

I don't really ever have ONE song, because I relate to too many to ever just choose one that kind of is 'my' song. Sometimes just being able to relate to parts of a song make it extremely special to me.

Here are just a few:

This one because I felt betrayed by my friends. I felt that I didn't fit in and that either I was a bad person or everyone must think I am because I was different and because that seemed to 'turn people off'... Although I've always been quite a loner, not having the choice in the matter was unbearable, especially since at the time I just felt like a freak instead of realising there's a perfectly valid reason for it, and even if there wasn't my own preferences were perfectly okay. I've always wanted to be included in everything, whether or not I choose to then include myself. So...

Nothingface
'Patricide'

I'm not the devil
That's untrue
I'm just not like you...
Anger holds my hands
Keeps me in seclusion
A prison...
But I can't help it, I hate everyone
Even you

Seeing it, breathing
All the pain and denial
Lied to again, left out
Feeling hollow and broken
I saw the devil crawl inside your heart
Buying my soul, tearing me apart

Sit in my room
Locked away
Constricted...
The burning ash
And choking smoke
Dry out my inside
But I'll still fight this every single day
'Til death

Seeing it, breathing
All the pain and denial
Lied to again, left out
Feeling hollow and broken
I saw the devil crawl inside your heart
Buying my soul, tearing me apart

See everything fall around me
I can't help anyone now
How many times do I have to die?
There's no blood left in my wrist
In my wrist

Find a way back inside of my mind
Reasons just slip away
You can't hold back again
Will you find a reason why
I should not die?
No, I don't care
No not this time
For the reasons why

I'm not the devil
That's untrue
I'm just not like you
Anger holds my hand
Keeps me in seclusion
A prison

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This one might not necessarily be classed as so much a song that makes me think of myself in terms of being an aspie, but it's one of the songs I feel I relate to strongly and parts of it are about the isolation I feel as someone who finds it hard to relate to other people. I seem to get 'left behind' a lot, because of it, so although I'll often think a friendship is fine it will then disintegrate, rapidly. When people do mean something to me (on the rare occassion) or I am happy with a situation, it's very hard to get go of that. I often wonder whether I'm the only person longing for the past, while all the people who shared it with me have moved on and forgotten about me/it. Most of the time it's not even people I want back in my life (I can only think of two people who meant something to me for themselves and not just for the nostalgia of the simpler time they represent to me).

Phil Collins
'We Fly So Close'
'We never realise just how close we come to disaster whether in love or in everyday life...'

My harbour lights are fading fast
Soon they'll disappear
Alone I sit in darkness
Hoping someone might come near
Though I wait, though I try
No one ever comes
And the feelings that I have flood over me
The river starts to run

We fly so close
We fly so close
Sometimes we fly too close

Every place you run to
Everywhere you turn
There are places that you know you should not go
But some bridges just won't burn
All my life, though I try
I cannot change the past
And the ghosts that come back to haunt you
Make you realise at last

That we fly so close
We fly so close
Sometimes we fly too close
We fly too close

My heart is racing much faster now
Life passes before my eyes
Some things I see, they make me smile
Some things, they make me cry
So I look, so I try to find
A lesson I can learn
The passing of time hasn't changed my mind
And the ghosts I know return

You know we fly so close
We fly so close
Sometimes we fly too close
We fly too close

We fly so close, you and I sometimes
Sometimes we fly so close
We'll never know how many times
We fly so close
We fly so close

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Like many people I have made many mistakes. Most of those seem to be related to my AS (although at the time of 'discovering' this song I had no idea about that). It seemed that I was always messing up, never knowing exactly how or why, or that I was always one step behind everyone else. I'd say something, then later realise that maybe I shouldn't have, or do something and then later realise I shouldn't have. Or perhaps in cases not saying or doing something that I probably should have. I have reached a stage where I try not to regret things, but being the introspective overthinker I am I can't help but sometimes revert back to regretting, or wondering. As I mentioned earlier, it seems like everyone else moves forwards, while I am either left here as I am, or I revert...

Phil Collins
'All Of My Life'

All of my life I've been searching
For the words to say how I feel
I'd spend my time, thinking too much
And leave a little to say what I mean
But I've tried to understand the best I can
All of my life

All of my life I've been saying sorry
For the things I know I should have done
All the things I could have said come back to me
Sometimes I wish that it had just begun
Seems I'm always that little too late
All of my life

Set 'em up, I'll take a drink with you
Pull up a chair, I think I'll stay
Set 'em up, 'cos I'm going nowhere
There's too much I need to remember
And there's too much I need to say

All of my life I've been looking
But it's hard to find the way
Just reaching past the goal in front of me
While what's important just slips away
And it doesn't come back, but I'll be looking
All of my life

Set 'em up, I'll take a drink with you
Pull up a chair, I think I'll stay
Set 'em up, 'cos I'm going nowhere
There's too much I need to remember
And there's too much I need to say

All of my life there have been regrets
That I don't do all I could
Playing records upstairs, while he watched TV
I didn't spend the time I should
And that's a memory I will live with
All of my life

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I prefer the Johnny Cash version, hence putting his name instead of putting NIN. This is another song that could describe some aspects of what affects me as an aspie, but again it is something that I also relate to based on relationships with other people. This one is slightly more positive (at the end) and I do feel that although I have problems with relationships and problems getting on because so much of 'getting on' seems to depend on other people, that given the choice I would like to try things again, but I would still want to be me. I suppose my diagnosis is giving me that chance. Better understanding with which to arm myself so that I can live the rest of my life with less confusion (although to be honest that's probably very unlikely!).

Johnny Cash
'Hurt'

I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything

What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of thorns
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still right here

What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way

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I'm sure there must be songs that could represent aspieness to me without being so negative/full of doom, but I can't think of any presently. There are songs that kind of do give me an uplifted feeling, that it's okay to be me and that I shouldn't have to feel like some kind of failure. I have AS and it's also a good thing even if a lot of people choose to look more at the negative aspects.

Here's one of them, hopefully I'll recall more so and inject more postivity into this thread than my previous lyrics choices...

4 Skins
'Sorry'

I won't say sorry for what I've done
I won't say sorry for having fun
I won't take the blame
And I ain't gonna be ashamed
I won't say sorry for what I've done
I don't say sorry to anyone

Shout it out
Shout it out
I don't give a damn cos I'm proud of what I am
Shout it out
Shout it out
I don't give a damn 'cos I'm proud of what I am
I don't give a damn 'cos I'm proud of what I am

I won't say sorry to you
If you think I will you know what you can do
I won't apologise
And I won't put up with none of your lies
I won't say sorry to you
You can stuff that up your a****** too

Shout it out
Shout it out
I don't give a damn cos I'm proud of what I am
Shout it out
Shout it out
I don't give a damn 'cos I'm proud of what I am
I don't give a damn 'cos I'm proud of what I am

I won't say sorry for how I act
I won't say sorry for the manners I lack
I won't say sorry at all
I won't say sorry 'cos it makes me feel small
I won't say sorry for the way I act
I won't say sorry and thats a fact