Dots wrote:
If I'm constantly writing music for my feelings, I would love if we communicated like that because maybe we would understand feelings better. If I could listen to how you feel through music, I'd probably understand how you feel better.
I don't think I could. It never even occurred to me that an Aspie could even do that. Go figure huh? An Aspie thinking that all other Aspie's operate just like me.
I can "write for my feelings." For me, music just comes to me, usually only a few bars at a time. That little "snippet" might be of one mood or another that matches how I "feel" at the time (and I use the word "feel" very lightly), but once I pick a snippet and decide to develop it, it takes on a life of its own.
Often, by the time I'm finished with it, it's nothing like how it began, and the feel is often totally different from when it began its gestation.
The biggest problem for me would be that what sounds one way to me, too often sounds very different to others.
I very well might have a grand ole time spouting my musical expression, all the while pissing everyone off around me. Guess what I'm saying is, I feel as handicapped communicating musically as by any other means.
I envy the musically fluent, who can.
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I'm not likely to be around much longer. As before when I first signed up here years ago, I'm finding that after a long hiatus, and after only a few days back on here, I'm spending way too much time here again already. So I'm requesting my account be locked, banned or whatever. It's just time. Until then, well, I dunno...