I Miss My Book Character!

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So awhile back I had this beautiful male book character I created just for and only me. He was so sweet, I loved him like I'd love any boyfriend. He had long, white-blonde hair, big grey eyes and the palest of pale skin. He was small and fragile( 5'5 120 pounds). I adored him so much I created a female character so I could cuddle him and have sexual intercourse with him. I felt so high in spirits when ever I did. He made me very happy. Soon I told my ex-therepist about it. I made my character half demon half Necrin(A species of undead immortals I made up) so he could live forever and never die. Well, my therepist had to go all "holy roller Christian" on me and say that she didn't want me to write about him or even think about him. Chances are if she wasn't a Christian, she would'nt of forced me to give him up. My mom agreed so she threw away all my novels and writings about this loveable, kind, character. Now I think about him every single day all day. I fantasize about stroking his soft skin and silky hair every night when I'm trying to sleep. When something bad happens at school I picture him saying "It's okay Sam, I hate your teachers too! Anyone who's mean to my perfect girl is one my hate list." He's the only guy I can imagine loving. He was so cute, he had a little belly button piercing on his tiny, warm, tummy. I can't let go, or stop thinking about him.

Quite a constricting enviroment you are in. Better make back-up copies next time.

you seem to have a very active imagination, maybe you could try to have some stuff published
And i don't think imaginary friends are that unhealthy, for some kids it's a natural part of growing up. Unless you start believing he's real or get too obsessed with him, then maybe it's time to let go of him.

Neither that lady nor your mom are the Thought Police, even though they're trying to be. You can go on imagining him and writing about him as much as you want. It's your imagination and no one can tell you how you can or can't use it.

It always makes me angry when I hear about therapists who try to tell people it's not OK to have imaginary friends. I used to have a therapist who was very supportive of and even fascinated with my imaginary friends - until she told her superiors about it (with my permission). They told her that I needed to stop and make real friends. After that, she kept trying to make me admit that I wanted real friends and telling me that I needed to have a social life. Even though I do have some real friends now, I still haven't given up my imaginary friends. And I never will.

I had created a character back in my college days named Harley Cobb who has stuck with me for years and years. Harley is a professional criminal with a near genius level intellect, stands well over six feet, and is a solidly muscular 250 lbs. He is calculating and ruthless, and has an arrogant streak to him. His signature murder weapon is his straight razor, which he will use either for a quick kill, or slow, agonizing torture.
Harley had originally stepped fully formed into my mind when I had been day dreaming ideas to write about. Though it wasn't till I had taken a class called Writing For The Screen that I had put him into a treatment for an abortive crime drama movie script, where he appears as the primary antagonist.
Harley Cobb has reappeared time and again in stuff I had written through the years. Yes, he is a vile, terrifying character. Yes, he has little or no redeeming qualities. But he is also a living and breathing person, as far as I'm concerned. And as much as I am reluctant to admit it, Harley is very likely my Id - he is all the dark, violent impulses I keep hidden away in my unconsciousness. He has been with me all these years, and I don't foresee him going away in the near future. And really, he has been with me so long, I don't want him out of my life, as odd as that may seem.

-Bill, otherwise known as Kraichgauer

maybe having imaginary friends is not that unusual, maybe it's just that NTs are less likely to talk about it because it's not a very ''socially acceptable'' thing to do. That shrink may have a couple of imaginary friends herself for all you know.

I have conversations with my book characters; when no one is looking of course.

he still exists in your head whatever they did, you can write it again.

Y'know, that thought has crossed my mind numerous times. But then again, it's difficult to find people who are willing to talk about their imaginary friends even with the anonymity of the Internet. Is having imaginary friends such a rare thing in adults that that really is the reason few people discuss it? Or is it because there's such a social stigma attached to having imaginary friends that even though many people have them, they're afraid to discuss them for fear of being labeled as "childish" or "mad"? I have a thought that maybe the artistic people who write stories and make movies treat the characters they use like imaginary friends, but either don't tell anyone or find some other way to describe it so it doesn't seem "childish" or "mad".

I've just realised that when I was fifteen, sixteen, seventeen I was doing the exact same thing that you did (only my character wasn't an immortal)... I kept writing a book with a male character that I could completely identify with, disappear into. I absolutely loved him.

He kind of vanished from my conscious awareness by the time I was nineteen, because my life changed... and I actually got a real boyfriend. But I wonder how common it is to intensely imagine and love characters of the opposite sex among folks on the spectrum? It's more creative and intimate than what a lot of NT girls do, which is fixate on some tv or movie character. Why are they considered normal? (Oh yeah... NT, normal by default.) Their second hand fantasies are acceptable, whereas our creative imaginings are not.

Perhaps your psychologist freaked out because you're the first aspie female she's seen doing this kind of thing? I'm sure, from some comments elsewhere on this forum, that this kind of imagining is not unusual... and could even be healthy, since it helps us "rehearse" for relationships later on.

Well I have a character who is very gentle, who sees the good in others, well she reminds (especially my in story character) that even if things are the hardest, you can do the right thing even if it is hard. Unfortuantly for my story self she is killed by someone out of controll while helping others, strangelly enough makes me the "friend" have an even stronger effect, though I have at times felt upset over what I put them through and she would be gone because of me. She doesn't quite have a set name, but a temporary one.

But from that there is another character met afterwards; Her name is Catherine aka Kitten who is stuck looking like a child, because of this recieved a lot of bullying, and constantly treated like a child, and knows she will never experience what other do, and never treated as an equel despite her mind. From her own anger she uses her dark abilities and personality conected to how she looks to get at others as revenge, but by conecting with each other mentally she can overcome it, an imperfect character willing to sympathise with any defects I might have. Probably sounds weirder then what others will think, but she is original, a psychologist would probably make me give her up, so I am pretty reluctat at sharing.

I've done this a few times, and I still do in a way...

Although I don't actually have them as imagery friends any more (as my life is OK now) I still like to come up with them for my stories, as making up qusi-mary sues is fun, and fine, just so long as you surround them with other 'flowed' (ie not 'perfect) characters.

One that I've come up with lately when I was still single was a young girl, for a SF epic I was writing (parts of the first draft are up on this site, but I've lately revised it and put into a comic strip format as I was unhappy with the later episodes, thus I when back and started it all over again) that is my perfect woman, I did this hoping that some girl may read it, start copying her, meet me and hopefully fall in love (I know I would)

Her name is Lukki, and she the 11 year old Princess of the Venusian kingdom of Voyboria.

Now before I start, yes it is true that she is only 11 years of age but her boyfriend is a the 10 year old space hero Stephen 'Booster' Jones, who is kinda a cross between Flash Gordon and Negi Springfield. And that I'm sure if I ever let her grow up she'd be really hot!! !!

And I bet you'd like her too when I tell you more about her...

She is not only incredibly beautiful (in a natural way) but she's also very kind, free spirited, romantic, childlike, fun loving, girly, very upbeat and cheerful and loves having adventures.

Some of you will note the fact that I took all of the things I've ever liked in women in real life and fiction, and put them all into one person.

If she were real I'd fall i love with her on the spot, and most likely she'd fall for me as I'm her type (she also likes to get looked after, well she is a princess after all!)

My GF has most of her best qualies, as the only one she is lacking is the love of adventure, but then you can't have everything...

Goodbye till next Time

i have in the past created a hannibal lector inspired mind palace to escape to........when the pain level i reached was almost unbearable. it was a very nice place to be.

if it's necessary for you to create these friends to continue, then do it. no harm, i would think.