Silence
Few would believe it
Once i was talkative
But again and again and again
Each time a stinging blow
Those hate filled words
Just because i thought differently
I was the other
I would never be accepted
Never be one of them
Never be good enough for them
No matter what i said
Someone would hate me for it
I hid behind a wall of silence
Terrified of people
Convinced they all would hate me
Silence was safety
No one yelled at me for being quiet
I heard them
They thought because I do not talk
That means I can't hear their cruel words
They wondered what was "wrong" with me
No matter what i try
I am never accepted
Silence was Safety
First I talked too much
Then I talked too little
I can't talk more
I see it in their eyes
They hate me
No one understands
I am trapped in my own world
Filled with ideas no one will ever hear
Silence was Safety
I can't look them in the eyes
I will never be who they think i should be
If i change for them
I won't be me anymore
I'll be just another mindless clone
I can't help but wonder
Is something really wrong with me
Why can't I be like them
I hate them
I hate myself
Why can't i be accepted for who i am?
Silence was safety
My wall of silence protects me from the world
Yet it locks me away from it
It is safety yet it is a prison
Without this wall they will destroy me
But i will never know freedom
Silence is my safety
04 Dec 2011, 1:45 pm
