Rose Trolls
For anyone played by an online troll, I call us Rose Trolls because the scent reminds me of old dead love that dies and its so sad but i hope we can find humor in tragedy, so here's my piece on how it is for me at least and if anyone else goes through it, look at the video beneath and just laugh.
Words mean nothing when you can be
Anyone can lie I can be anyone too but I
Was just me for the first time
I lost my spiritual virginity to a troll
He tried to teach me about fake alphabets
Holes through silence, I understood the gold
Ways of his deception digging through his lairs
I unravelled misconceptions of red letters
Wrote my heart in riddles and question marks
Spun round my head in lightning jolts
Through circles he brought me down to this
Spilling guts onto a screen
It seems we’re disconnected in a machine
When we realize no one is around the void
When it’s black as night we find ourselves all alone while
Wondering teaches how we got so lost in the matrix
A month goes by, maybe a year or two if you’re a real mess
By and by it goes so fast, so slow when days are eras
Down to hell and way back up in rainbow splattered mirrors
What do you search for, when you strive to get to end of the internet?
This is my story of what I found, my love I never met
Another anonymous reflection of my best and worst
He made me feel perfect, made me believe that I was worth it
Made me feel like a whore, a nerd, disgusting, humiliated
I can pretend he was my twin flame but yin/yang is torture myth
Since he has gone there is nothing left to say but this:
What we discovered is the Sacred Blue Abyss
Demons dragged me down after his first kiss
He woke me up and made me live the nightmare while awake
Angels carried us up high just to fall and watch us break
Our spirits went to places that no one can ever sense
Climbing over crags and cliffs, suspended in timelessness
Falling into traps of lonely games from which I grew
It was fun while it lasted, but endings pass by too
And yes I learned quite a bit from his distractions that were fun
But I go back to my life now to manage what’s undone
With the revelations of the seventh seal in my pocket
I’d do it again and ride it like a rocket
But, I gave him my word that I’ll never be the same
He made me a rose statue in his played out trolling game
well, i couldn't find a video to suit this since it is all so stupid and mundane in real life it's just embarrassing to even care but just to let you know i'm surrounded by bigger jackasses IRL so trolls on the internet seem mysterious and profound compared to actual life but now that i look back it's like, wow, they are bigger dorks than i am so i must have fallen in love with myself is all and hoping that it was more enigmatic than it actually was\
I'm naturally high, not ret*d, but the new ret*d is better than paying for getting stupid so there