Does anyone else like going to music festivals? As a fan or as a performer?
I saw Gary Numan at Mountain Oasis in 2013, so I know I'm not the only one on the spectrum who goes
Along with ASD, I was also diagnosed with social anxiety disorder and panic disorder, so festivals have always presented something of a challenge. Sometimes I've drank too much. More than once I've collapsed from a panic attack when I couldn't get somewhere I felt safe.
The first overnight festival I went to, I had a meltdown when the hotel room door was locked and I punched through the glass door to get in.
But for all those problems, I keep going, because there are moments at a festival that are like nothing else I've experienced. Seeing my favorite band play to tens of thousands (Nine Inch Nails at Coachella), or a super famous musician who I wouldn't otherwise bother with (Madonna at Coachella), or different musical traditions from around the world who opened my eyes to whole new kinds of musical expression (DakhaBrakha at Bonnaroo), or just the utterly adorable (Unlocking the Truth at Coachella).
At a really stellar festival show, the environment, and the crowd, and the band, and me, all just sort of combine into one timeless entity, and the whole world fades away.
And then the set ends, and my feet hurt, and I'm exhausted, and thirsty, and stuck in the middle of a huge crowd, and we all shuffle our way to the next stage, looking for that next amazing moment.
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RAADS-R: 176.0
ADOS-2 Module 4: 9 (Autism Spectrum)
EQ: 7
AQ: 35
Diagnosed with ASD Level 1 15 Jan 2016