I'm glad to hear you get to compose for other people but in your own style. Or styles!
I really, really wanted to be a classical composer. Got to university to find that in order to be taken seriously now, your music has to be atonal (preferably serialist) or, in a pinch, minimalist. I don’t hate either of those things, but I don’t listen to them much. Certainly can’t write in those styles, and don’t want to.
I like all those forgotten minor post-Romantics, like Resphigi or Walton, who were doing interesting things without getting obsessed with made-up rules. The music maybe isn’t as solid as Bach or Brahms, but it’s encouraged me to start composing again.
_________________
You're so vain
I bet you think this sig is about you