Not wanting to what reminds me of yesterday:-(
I am in the hospital. I do have Pandora and YouTube on my phone. - I have no working audio music players, itherwiss . I'm homeless, remember. I do have a cheap combination CD/turntable/etc. I bought during the 2018 windfall and some CDs & vinyl waiting for me for if I ever have a place.
I was very involved with music in the Twentieth Century. Being homeless cuts your access to music off. I wanted to be involved with " indie music ", but .y n( with me never having gone to uni I member had that areo . I was, feeling, I a
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re station that was for, briefly, music that was rather Eighties/Nineties " college/indie rock. stuff. It reminded of the steps I didn't take/didn't have and rather underlined my feeling about never having gone to uni - and perhaps I never will.I did end up playing the station, though. I was never a college radio DJ . Perhaps that is no longer a bug deal.
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
...There should have been " listen " intm thee headline Not wanting to listen to what reminds me of yesterday.
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
...I'll put this here, since the line's been posted in recently. I recently entered the phrase " college student " in this phone (here in the hospital, where I've inside one room or the other for essentially 100% for well over a week.
When I was doing Santa Cruz, with lots of noticeable " college students " I would occasionally see someone who looked like the type of " college student " I pictured myself. sort of neat follies/ Bahamian. It could get me depressed. .
Now, I entered " college student " it - looked at the image that came up, cried m, looking at a picture of someone (Caucasian, male) sort of like me .
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
...Yes, it is true that YT can let me sample many kinds of music that I couldn't before. But it's also true that I'm not " part " of You tube - I
can"t lost. I can't start my own channel. Nobody will show me how to. If somebody just would . This is an archetypicsl " asking to be taught how to fish " butt no one will two it, for all the nicely- nice things they say. It's not asking for money or material things, but knowledge. But, I have nobody .
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
I've learned SO MUCH from YouTube.
I'm not a "member" of YouTube myself. I've never posted anything. Never saw the need to.
What one has to do is to avoid most things of a political nature on YouTube. Usually, anything political is merely a "rant."
For the first time, I was able to see people driving in Yaoundé, Cameroon. I was able to see old footage of The Who a year before they had their first decent hit, "I Can't Explain."
...I only have a teeny phone, nothing else. I can hardly make out anything. My eyes are getting older and weaker in general and I don't have prescription glasses ' I haven't' for many years . With my lack of glasses and wy weakening eyes and my bad back that makes a comfortable position hard I read " real " things so little. I don't have good stability , or a place to put aside and use things - looks those books/records in storave . Where even the storage paid for and and answer back from that NYS lawyer is a non-stop trudge.
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
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