Sore Subject
I think life is funny sometimes. I don't know what is worse having the perfect resume and the worst interviews or having the worst resume and having good interviews. I am the former and my cousin is the latter. Sure people call me and say I am just the person they are looking for. That is until they meet me. Then it's a nightmare. I think I offend people by the dualism. I guess I am curious if others on this forum have run into this conundrum. I love words although my pronounciation is something to be desired.
I am not shy about using the paper and pen to write out how I feel or what I think about something. Spoken langauge is messy and I have to worry about how I sound as much as I have to worry about what I am saying. In the classroom I always used unintended humor to cover a sore spot or a glitch in what the hell I was trying to say or mean, and so forth.
That doesn't work in the interview I have tried it. I have even tried not to care what the interviewer thought always but that doesn't work when your family is simmering with resentment because your an adult and not supporting yourself. I just would love to hear the magic words: Can you start tommorrow? Instead of well we don't have that many positions open for such and such a job but I will see what I can do.
Ah if only getting a job worked as well as getting a good grade. Just hand in the paper and show approval by letting me prove myself on the job not some primitive quasi-social scientific statistical means of figuring out what is the right way to respond to a question.
Sure I do have alot ideas for an epic fantasy series that I would like to write but that's my pipedream. I realize getting any work published the way you want is difficult. I feel trapped. Writing and art have always been my crucibles yet they have no value if they can't be sold. If feels like having fake currency in one's hand. Nobody really wants this they just want a personality that is fun and charismatic and extremely talkative to the point of insanity.
I understand. I'm currently unemployed and am having a hellish time finding work. I have a good resume - good in the sense that I have a lot of varied, good experience and I'm skilled in a lot of things. Problem is it looks hodge-podge on paper. Then I suck at interviews and explaining how I have such a variable work history yet am still a very good, reliable employee (which I am, unless my boss pisses me off LOL). If I feel like an interview is going badly, I have a hard time turning it around to mya dvantage - in fact, i often make it worse by talking quiter and quiter. The worst part of an interviwe is whent hey ask "Do you have any questions for us?" Argh! I know it looks good if you ask questions, it makes you look genuinely interetsed in the job, but I never know what to ask by then. I can go into the interview with several question prepared, but by the time they're done questioning me, I'm so scattered I can't recall them (I am going to start writing so cues down and taking them in a folder along with copies of my resume).
I understand about your feelings about writing amd art. I'm that way too. I've struggled a longtime work-wise because I work only for the money. I have never been very "career-oriented" and it's hurt me financially. My heart really is in my creative wrork, and it's not commercially viable enough. Some of my writings are getting more commerically viable - and fortunately, it's not because I'm "selling out." I'm just getting experienced enough that I understand the connection between good writing and commercially viable writing better. i'm hoping to have somethings publish in teh near future, even though it'll be tough.