lasirena wrote:
Lamertcia (real name, on my birth certificate)
My parents wanted a name that meant strong and peaceful. I was strong and peaceful all right, strongly independent, never cried and would sit for hours content drawing. I had very obvious Asperger traits as a kid (at least to me looking back) but was never diagnosed, no one ever suggested diagnoses, asked my mom why, she said probably because I never caused any problems.
Loved archeology- still do- would do archeological digs in my backyard, actually found stuff, Hawaiian artifacts! and mongoose bones!, the bones I would arrange into abstract designs.
I was also fasinated by mummies (espiecially the Iceman), and the study of human origins.
I have drawn since I could hold a pencil (so say my parents). I drew mermaids, and my parents got me the little mermaid coloring book ( original not Disney) I adored it . I can remember all the pictures and one line espiecially " She gave up her voice to be human, and live above the sea, and walk on land, though every step felt as if knives cut her feet". I think this is a good analogy of what Asperger feels like. I rarely spoke as a kid, except when I was curious about something, and then I wouldn't stop asking questions.
I have people tell me I was a strange kid- and they say it as if it's funny because I "obviously" turned out "just fine" ( is that supposed to mean I seem normal? functional?)
It never bothed me that I didn't fit in, I was very content by myself, and even if I had been neurotypical I still wouldn't have been like everyone else. Let me explain . . .
I look like an elf out of Lord of the Rings- I'm 5'9 and at the time the movie came out (highschool) I had long blond wavy hair (much shorter now) and people constantly told me I looked like Galadrieal the elf queen. I grew up on Molokai a tiny island in Hawaii, the population mostly consists of Hawaiian-Asian-Filipino decscent, there were basically 5 blond people in my school- one of them my sister.
I think it was better this way, I was so obviously different, people left me alone, and didn't pick apart my stranger differences. I was also oblivious to people teasing me (I didn't pick up that they were!), and so didn't react, and mostly they just got bored and gave up.
Took me 3 yrs to embrace my aspieness, I'm a bit obbsessive about truth, and don't like to accept things without truly understanding them. Accepting it feels not like a label or something that defines me, but an emancipation.
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