Yes, I miss many, today
Today I am lonely, I miss my companion, whoever that will be in the future, for I know not now.
I am alone, I have no partner, not for want of possible canditates - most get dismissed early on when they make an obvious spelling error, or almost any spelling error - because I am not short of gifts in life (and I can look hot, believe it or not) but it is only the few I can communicate with that I can consider. The few who I feel really see me and all of me at that.
So, I miss Myles from years ago, my almost boyfriend of several times over it seems, who apparently wrote me into his book, and still talks about when I played piano for him. By now, there is nothing odd that I can do that he could not accept. I could talk to him openly. He would not look at me with the blown-away look that others all have, except after the years have washed them away, and that I get soo tired of having to deal with. Myles is another city now and I miss him.
I miss the lovely man, who I barely know, but who had that sense of liking the odd straight away and the look of a kind soul in his eyes. He was a doctor and I dated him for a little while. He struck me because he had a sense of humour, a chivalry, breadth of understanding, warmth, spontaneity and intuitive and empirical honesty and intelligence that I miss. He moved. He ain't comin' back. I miss him.
I feel like I miss friends, but.. I don't. I miss someone to talk to, someone to ramble with, someone to help find solutions, someone to throw in ideas, someone to remind me when I'm forgetting, someone to co-operate with and someone to cuddle