Lonermutant,
Something you said about women bullies struck a chord with me. Guy bullies would just stomp you or trying to shove your head into a trashcan - and taking blows is not that hard for me. Just go limp and take the blows. But women bullies would try to humiliate me in a much more deeper, incisive fashion.
A great problem with me and girls is that, whenever a woman appears interested in me, there's still this voice inside of me saying: "She's not interested in you. She's just teasing you and she'll humiliate you if you expose yourself. She probably made a bet with her friends." This was, and still is, very difficult for me to step over. Because sometimes, when a girl is interested (and remains interested after me "discussing" whatever happens to catch my interest at that time) - it means just that.
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Merlijn
Male, self-diagnosed - so perhaps I really am a mutant.