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It is not an appropriate way to win respect for myself. I suddenly realised again that I rather want respect, instead of having three photos as proof while receiving more contempts. And I am rather surprised for that how long it has taken me to realise it.
My heart was in a shallow, vulgar chaos during the last several days. Nonetheless, it is the right time for the conclusion now.
I cannot imagine how much I seems have changed since the last fortnight.
Serious, in-depth conversations would never follow my photos. They have merely led to worse impressions.
My heart was preoccupied by my vanity. I have found that the way is useless and worthless.
Perhaps, "No more but e'en a woman."
This is a thing that every woman can do. And every man can follow. It does not require mental things, although we can indulge ourselves to it; nevertheless, it essentially not. There is no difference between thus and the most worthless trifle.
Nothing about heart and soul, merely fresh. Perhaps, I am very cynical now, I would not deny that it has given me pleasure. It perhaps has given me some.., but very little, that I can nearly ignore that. I feel embarassed for the last two photos.
I have never changed.
Good night. It is the time for some peace and depth. And I apologize for all the childish trifles that I have done here.
Farewell.
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