Sweatleaf i understand what your going through and feel the same way alot of times and get wasted to escape reality and numb the pain as well as try to forget the past, been that way for over 10 years. I wish i could help ya out but i live too far away and might drive you bonkers at times whenever im in a good mood i get hyper. Now that spring has come i dont feel as depressed or worthless but those negative thoughts and self hating do creep in from time to time.
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Your Aspie score is 193 of 200
Your neurotypical score is 40 of 200
You are very likely an aspie
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