Hi WildMonkey,
I want to help you with your quote: "Life sucks, where is the restart button?". I would suggest: "Life sucks, I should push the reset button". What do you think?
I wish I would have something smart to say about you and Pauline, but only you and her can figure it out...life is really complicated, but the game of it kind of...NOT sucks.
On the topic, I miss my family in Romania, sometimes I feel like they are just a fiction of my imagination, too many people to list here...I don't miss John at all, because I feel like he's close all the time...maybe only in my (delusional )mind, but it feels good.
Can we list things here? What I DON'T miss is being angry all the time, like I was for the 36 years prior. And I DON'T miss the pain meds that didn't do any good to the pain in my spine or the depression meds that almost made me kill myself in May. I am medicine free!! ! Yeah!! ! Life is pretty good!! !
Heya, everybody else, don't you miss anybody?! !!
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Love and compassion are necessities, not luxuries. Without them humanity cannot survive.
Dalai Lama
PS For whoever wants to hurt me (in my professional life, for example) using what I posted in confidence here, watch out, I have a good lawyer.