Brianruns10 wrote:
Narfibald wrote:
Brianruns10 wrote:
And tell me, what if this doesn't work out? Are you just going to fall into a self-destructive depression? Or will you be able to pick yourself up and find the will to fight another day? I know I'm just some guy on the internet, but well...the way you're going into this just has me a little concerned.
If it doesn't work I probably will go spiraling off. We share SO MANY interests, and if that isn't enough, if I'm not good enough for her, then clearly I'm not good enough for ANY woman, because someone who shares my interests is the most ideal match I'll ever find. If she doesn't accept me...I'll probably restart my "success or death by 30" timetable, which is a promise I've made to myself: if I've not had a major success as a filmmaker, or I've not found someone who loves me, there is no point in prolonging the futility...
"Success or death by 30" eh? Okay, so lets say you achieve a major success as a filmmaker, which leads to a long successful career. You die of old age, and leave behind a library of great films to be enjoyed by future generations. Unless you believe theres an afterlife from which you can look down on your earthly creations and point them out to the other dead people, then you won't be able to enjoy your achievements when you're gone. Your best bet for happiness is to do something because you enjoy doing it.
edit: If you need to talk man, pm me or something. I got work tomorrow, but i'll see what i can do.
And hell you're not even 30 and you want to off yourself if you don't create you masterpiece by then?! Even when you do turn 30, you won't even have lived half your life, and half of the part you did live you spent growing up!
My good sir, I think you have some personal demons you need to vanquish. You want other people to love you, but you need to learn to love yourself.
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--Lord of Castle Narfenstein
--Ruler of the Narfshire
--Keeper of the Tome of Narf
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