What's the Point of a Loveless Life?

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Well, I'm 21, recently diagnosed. I'm no "Magic Mike", but I'm a decent looking guy if you like the big tough guy look (shaved head, goatee, etc.). People always think I'm older, and I tend to get along with people more in mid-20's to mid-30's. I have never had a relationship, never been kissed or anything else. People often compare to me a bouncer on the outside, teddy bear on the inside, and people say I'm a nice guy, yet nobody has ever wanted me. I can't even put into words how badly I'm aching for affection. Maybe it's fueled by pent up hormones, but the only point I can find in this chaos we call life is to love and be loved. But the catch-22 is that I have no interest in the people around me. I think once I move to a bigger city I may have more luck, but nobody has ever understood me, and I'm losing all hope. I'm at the end of my rope and I don't know how much more rejection I'm supposed to be able to take. I'm not sure if there's anything that can even be said, but I can't take hurting like this anymore and I'm afraid of what's going to happen if I can't find anyone to take some mercy on me, SOON.

hiya dan welcome to our cool club
i understand what it feels like to be stuck in the social wilderness, i've lived there for most of my 5 decades on this effed-up world. i was fully prepared to die a hermit until i became the living example of john lennon's warning that "life is what happens when you've made other plans." IOW out of the blue, another wrong planet member took an extreme interest in me, something totally unexpected for sure. i am not most women's idea of attractive, either, so this happening to me is akin to winning the lottery, but after many decades it finally happened. when i was your age, when somebody told me i might have to wait until i was an old man before i might find somebody right for me, i angrily spat out "i'd rather die than wait that effing long! what effing use is an old man to anybody?" i would indeed have preferred that god take me out than have to wait that long, but god had other ideas for me, he correctly deduced that i was totally immature and not good mate material for anybody for that reason, but that also i had it in me to eventually learn to be a compassionate human being, and that if i wanted a friend i had to first learn how to BE a friend. i was friendless and achingly lonely until i learned this. you are young, you have many years on me, years that you can put to infinitely better use by determining NOW to be a friend to anybody who needs one, and when you do this, the mate you need will appear. it took me too damned long [4 decades] to learn this but you can be smarter than me and do it NOW, and not wait 4 decades for the lightbulb to light up in your brain. i KNOW your luck will be better than mine, if you put this into practice ASAP.

freedom

Family, Friends, Food!

OP, there are many other forms of love besides romantic love. It's very possible to be single and not lead a loveless life.

The point?
Don't you enjoy anything at all besides being in love?

Why does it have to be romantic love? It's your life and therefore your call, but I found myself much happier after expanding my idea of what kind of love I needed in my life and what kind of love could make me feel like I belong.

Life has a point. A sharp one. It hurts.

Hi Dan,
I think you will find that quite a few of us have had similar feelings (it's a rough time), and lived through it.

I think auntblabby's advice is very good, learn to be a friend, also join clubs etc to meet other people with similar interests.

And most importantly, learn to like and live with yourself, if you don't think you are a cool guy, why should anybody else.

Don't give up, tomorrow is a new day and you don't know what will happen.