Hi, I'm Helen from Australia. I've never been diagnosed with AS but strongly suspect I have it or some other form of autism. At school I suffered from a lack of friends and was constantly being bullied and misunderstood. I had trouble sharing my toys and would often line my pencils up all colour-coded instead of using them. Growing up things have gotten worse. Even though I've got several university degrees, I have no luck finding a rewarding career or even job. People don't trust me. I can't count the times people have been put off by something I've said. I've been in job interviews where the interviewer has walked away in disgust after a simple question I made that I thought was normal. I've been fired from jobs because the people in the office didn't feel I melded well into the environment, even though I was always polite and nice to everyone. In fact, I'm one of the nicest people I know, very selfless and giving and generous... but somehow it feels like it's not enough for people to like being around me.
I'm in my 30s, unemployed and living at home and doing odd (sh**ty) jobs where I can get them. I like dancing, singing, acting, watching DVDs, researching stuff on the internet, reading and having coffee with the handful of friends I have. I have a handful of movies I watch again and again without getting tired of them: Cast Away, The Pianist, Kiki's Delivery Service and The Mirror Has Two Faces. I also have some obsessive interests, like oak trees, houses, cold rainy weather (I hate the heat), astrology, spirituality, God and the environment. I like all sorts of music but I'm in love with Adam Lambert. Somehow I feel he's speaking right to my heart when he sings. For someone who hasn't been in love for over 10 years, that's exciting for me.
I have never had a partner even though people tell me I'm good-looking and funny and stuff. I think it goes back to being sexually abused as a toddler. My deepest wish is to win the Tattslotto so I can afford to get my own house and live by myself, preferably in a cold country. I keep my fingers crossed every week!
Nice to be here.
Hey, you sound a bit like me. I'm also an Aspie in Australia. I have a couple of uni degrees, but I have trouble finding a decent, rewarding job with them. I work little casual jobs here and there, but it isn't really good enough income. I need something more permanent. I also live at home, and dream of winning the lottery or something. I have never been in a relationship ever. I'm a bit younger than you, at 28.