I told people that my plan was to wear all black (black shirt, black pants, black socks, black tie, black shoes), arm myself with water balloons, and pelt couples showing way too much PDA. Does that make me a bad person?
I began a friendship a couple weeks ago with someone who I know is trying to get over the end of a 3-year relationship, so I made a point of respecting the friendship boundaries, but I'm realizing that it's a lot easier said than done. This is someone with whom I'm comfortable enough to tell everything to (including my condition) and someone who I know accepts me for who I am, doesn't want me to curb my geeky tendencies, and sees the things in me that I aspire to be, but don't often see in myself. And I'm starting to feel something that I know that I very well shouldn't.
I told her. I had to. And I know for both our sakes, I have to keep my distance.
I'm going to my martial arts academy to practice tonight. I might be meeting up with an old friend, who just broke up with her boyfriend, as she's going to be leaving to go back to Taiwan in a few months. And this is someone who I allowed to use me for three years while I was trying to figure out how to get her to be my GF, long before I realized the whole thing about attraction not being a choice. What the hell is wrong with me.
-ABwC