I'm thoroughly drained and hurt. I don't know where it went wrong, only that it did. It only makes sense to me that you hadn't been communicating that you had struggles to me, and it always hit by surprise. If I didn't get glimpses of how much guilt you carry around I would say that you have unworldly expectations, but I think you just hid all your struggles from me, thinking I couldn't handle it, because of my own problems that I let you see nearly immediately.
No, I'm not thinking I'll never fall in love again, I only fear losing what I had. I'm not thinking so far into the future as when I could possibly ever fall again. I don't -want- anyone else but you, don't you understand?? There is no better choice for me than you, not from my perspective. But it's not mutual, I see that now. I'm just another person you had feelings for, then you got over-wrought and you gave up.
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Not autistic, I think
Prone to depression
Have celiac disease
Poor motivation