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I wish you the best of luck on this.

It seems prudent to summarize how the situation unfolded. Over the last few days, it is as if the characters in my life suddenly engaged in a game of musical chairs, and now all the tables are turned.

On Tuesday, my lady friend history-major, who I described earlier, discovered that she had passed a class that she thought she had failed, which means she will graduate with her degree in less than two weeks, and move away. I must remain here, so it would be impractical to pursue a relationship beyond our current friendship.

On that same day, another lady friend of mine, an adorable goth girl who I have known for almost as long, discovered that her boyfriend is cheating on her ... with multiple women, making her understandably distraught. I told her I was there for her if she needed someone. She said that she was flattered, but we're both busy as finals week approaches. She'll be here over the summer too, so I'm stoked about that. It's still to early to know if anything can or will happen.

Meanwhile, my roboticist friend is graduating with his degree, and has a job set up, which means I must continue the project we started without him: an autonomously-navigating toy car.

Beware the rebound romance... they don't last.

Though they can be fun while they do, just recognize it is probably a summer fling and no more... So you don't have to take it quite as personally when things go to H### in a handbasket.

I'm not too worried about that. I'm 23, and I've NEVER been able to secure so much as a date, so my expectations are rock bottom. Heck, if she comes over and eats waffles with me for breakfast while we talk about music, and then she goes away forever, I'll still be stoked out of my mind. The mere fact that she didn't act like I was crazy for asking her out has me walking on air.

Waffles! I'd be there, but at my age I'd probably do more harm to your rep than good. LOL

Enjoy...

Craziness . . . The tables turned again.

On Tuesday I had a club meeting with the goth gal. Afterwords, I offered her a ride back to her dorm, but she declined and got a ride from another club member instead (a club member who has a girlfriend). (I hate driving anyway. I'm a cyclist.) I've still never got the chance to talk with her alone and in person. Someone else is always there, or it's online so I can't see her face. Sometimes I'd just like to ask her how her day has been, or ask what would motivate someone so pretty to carve such deep wounds into her arm. It's probably none of my *** business anyway. After all, how could a goofy hip-hop b-boy like me ever comfort a dark somber metal-head like her?

When she got in that car and left, that got me feeling down, and just so ... powerless, so I scribbled this down right then&there, and threw in some photoshop color later that night.
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There's lots of glaring artistic errors, but this isn't meant for show. It's just to capture the moment. Yes, I look like I stepped off the set of an 80's music video, but I was actually dressed like that at the time.

So here's the flipside...
On Wednesday evening, I went to a senior project presentation by my activist lady-friend (mentioned at the beginning of the thread). I came in during a documentary showing. She seemed really excited to see me, and pulled up a chair for me right next to hers. After the presentation, I found out that she WILL be in town for the summer, and she told me to keep in touch.
So now I'm back to the planning phase, trying to figure out if there's something I can do for her ... maybe coffee or a concert.

Don't think me disingenuous for switching sides (again). I've known both women for several months now, so I'd be willing to do favors to help either one, and I'm not a cheater because nothing has happened with either one yet. Still, the confusion has got my heart tied in knots.

Hey, relax. You're just making friends, not marrying them. If something develops from there, that's fine.

I'm sorry to hear the goth girl is a cutter... there's a lot of heavy emotional stuff that goes with that. My partner used to be a cutter (I didn't know her at the time) and she was a victim of ritual sexual abuse. Safety may be a big issue for her, so riding with someone (who is not 'in the market') she knows better may be why she didn't ride with you. Not about you, about what she needs.

Sounds like you need to chill a little on what to expect in getting to know someone... I've had very, very few one-to-one conversations at a party or gathering. That's not what they're for. Gatherings are more for just meeting, greeting, and social cohesion... networking. If you want to have a tete-a-tete, ask her out for coffee... maybe the first time or two with a friend. I suggest this because of her possible fears and background; give her a chance to feel safe in your company. Ask about her weekend... don't ask about those wounds, yet.

Goth has always struck me as such an extreme role, costume. It seems to have a lot of death overtones, too. It's a kind of social armor, it seems to me.

Breathe, breathe, breathe.

Great about the activist... that definitely sounds like she reciprocates your offer of friendship.

AND you are a marvelously talented artist! Wow!

I like the sketch
One of the mistakes I made when, deciding to make friends was to focus too much on one or two people.

"glaring artistic errors"? dude :S
i draw as well, and i can se NOTHING glaringly erroneous about that pic
(in fact, im still not finding anything i'd call an error :S)

lemme tell you what: you are hereby within the "safe zone" to be LESS humble about your artwork

come on, say it with me:
"i draw like a mofo!"

Since you guys gave me good reviews on my old art project, I th*t I'd show my latest work, a portrait of my goth friend using a reference photo I took a few months ago.


I finished it yesterday, and sent her the link late last night. In her reply she said "You rock. Harder than granite." so I considder the project a success.
I might invite her to see a movie with me, or something, but I don't know how to word an invitation. I'll have to figure something out.

Wow! That's really nice! You've really captured something of her... very engaging. =0) So many amateur portraits are flat... but not yours. You've definitely got a talent worth developing! I hope you pursue it, at least as a hobby.

I agree. No group dates, except in special circumstances...this isn't one of them.